★BINTANG★

i miss her a lot =,(

2010-01-03T10:25:00.000-08:00

today is the first day of schl.
& i don`t feel it..

maybe cuz of my hwks are not done yet..
& also i haven`t buying anything
for the school re-open.

i miss adik,my sister a lot.
i don`t know it`s gonaa be this tougher.

on last friday,i don`t cried but now
i feel like i can`t survive..
& right now. . .
my tears are keep falling down. . .

uhhhhh~i`m not used to it..seriously!
she`s the person who i share most of my time
with..she`s almost my twin =(

& suddenly she`s missing for 3 month..
*take a deep breath*

hoping soon,
i`m getting used to this.

she gave me a key-chain..
later i post it here!

busy with the outing.

2009-12-30T14:32:00.000-08:00

woke up late. planned to watched sherlock holmes
but it was cancel since something bad interfered.
then we`re off to hospital ripas.

this is me.
*spect kuu biut =/*

with a mad girl. . .

just because of high heels..

eaaa duduk cane..
T-A-L-U-R!

at night,ka mit treat us a dinner
off to PIZAA-HUT & DQ.

my 2 brothers,
japaar & madir.

i also watched mid-night show with my siblings.
me,adik,mamat,japar & madir came to mall at 9.30 pm.
is a great movie. he`s to brilliant
& clever,seriously.i`m a big fan of him.

adik =(

2009-12-26T14:29:00.000-08:00

OMG! less than a week my closest sister are going to be far a miles away me. she`ll disappear in my life for 3 months. she`s gonna off to Cairo because my eldest sister studied there.

ka mit & ka diana,
bet we`re gonna cry on that day.
but if we prove them wrong,
they gonna give us B$100.

*pray for me,to get this money..amin!"

worst day ever.

2009-12-25T03:50:00.000-08:00

meet up again.

hoping today we`re enjoy the time we spent together.
but it`s SUCK. it really was.

i hate when he asked me to delete
the strangers who`s now become my
friend at facebook & friendster.

seems like it`s hard for him to trust me..

it make us having a huge fight
until now...

i said something that he forbid. . .
but i wonder why he just replied "it`s gonna hurt you"
and keep silent even i forced him to be honest..

anywaay,
my blog is active back.

stupidity.

2009-11-29T15:25:00.000-08:00

i`ve done a stupid mistake

i supposed not to tell but..

i`m gonna make this blog PRIVATE

please,
apologize me.

CAUTERIZE - Shooting Stars

2009-11-29T15:14:00.000-08:00

I know it's been a long time.
You've lost that look in your eye.
The one that told me everything was fine without a word.
But now we're standing face to face,
with nothing left to say but goodbye to yesterday.

I don't know if I can make it.
I don't know if I'm that strong.
I don't know where we went wrong but somehow it's over.
In my mind I see you clearly.
In my dreams I feel you near me.
I want to know, does this feeling go away?

Like shooting stars we shine and then we fade,
breaking the promises we made.
What about the promises?
What about the promises we made?
What about our plans for forever?
Did they scare you?
Did you need to get away?

You taught me many things.
Like how it feels to miss someone so bad
it feels like a part of you is missing.
I can tell you one thing.
Now that you have gone I never will forget you.
You left your mark.

When I have gone and you've moved on will you remember me?

p/s:
at last. . .
we promise to each other that
we`ll make it better than it ever was..

& yes,my BEST-FRIEND
is going to be BOY-FRIEND
after my GRADUATION.

aii-elle-waai,AzieQ

uhh~hate him.

2009-11-25T03:37:00.000-08:00

screaming & shouting in the phone is our daily routine. . .

like it happen everyday =(
i just can`t stand it,seriously.

i know we`re loving each other
but still it`s not enough..

idk,why when we want to have a
SERIOUS-RELATIONSHIP
it turn out with something like this.

busy busy!

2009-11-20T04:39:00.000-08:00

next week is the last week of the school..

however..
we`re still learning as usual..
& the day before
what even worst when we have assessment..
FYI, i feel so lazy to do my revision =/
my teacher zam zam also give us
hwks during hoidaay..

"like it`s my first time to receive a homeworks for december.."

same goes with my english class =/
i`ve some project given by miss pauline..
& thanks god i`m with akhbar & ayun..
hoping we can be a good teamwork (x

lastly business study,
we`re given some research
& due is on this mondaay..

quite busy..
bye-bye!

taylor swift song (x

2009-11-15T21:30:00.000-08:00

None of us thought it was gonna end that way
And we know it's never simple, never easy
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't breathe Without you,
but I have to Breathe Without you.

But I'd rather
you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather
hear the truth and have to say goodbye

But baby
Don't you break my heart slow

And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
You're not sorry

end of the love story.

2009-11-11T22:02:00.000-08:00

i`m hurt again & again,are you happy?
what i`ve done?
you liers!
what you mean by that?
darn you!! why giving hope & make me fall with no attention to catch me.
baby,what happen until make u think that way?
don`t call me baby.. i hate youuu!
nooo..there`s must be something unsettle here.. tell me slowly .. don`t let ur emotional feeling control you..your attitude now making her success in tearing us apart.
okay should i just pretend that i`m blind,deaf & stupid with what she told & email me. those pictures is suck it really was..
i`m not that worst..you should put your trust me on me..okaay?
I Love Youuu..
love? what`s the point of saying I love you after hurting me… I prefer you just kill me rather than punished me like this..
don`t said like that.. i can explain everything..
i guess i don`t need any explanation.. i think it`s better we`re until here cuz i`m sick with you!you are so endearing..& it`s killing me!!stop it!!

past is past,
friend is friend.

i`m single.. then so what?

2009-11-08T12:53:00.000-08:00

"this is what i detest the most about you! your anguish is always over the top.. when that happen,you never care about what people feel & think..

i want you to take back your words..
it`s a must!

always keep it in your mind"

omg..he forgive me..

2009-11-06T08:05:00.000-08:00

zieeeq
your mail make me
more guilty!

it remind me the moment
when they dislike me
you stubbornly ignore it..

i thought everything was
fine..

even our world is
totally different..

but after all..
i just cant fits you..

baby,we need to talk..
what do you mean?
something has come up..
what?what`s wrong?
i don`t want to hurt you babe..
omg i hope he does`nt break up with me..i love him so much.. *think*
are you there?
yeah..i`m here what is so important?
i`m not sure if i should say..
well~you already brought it up,so please please tell me..
i`m leaving..
what are you talking?i don`t want you too leave me..i love you..
not like that,i mean moving far away..
why your family lives over here..
well~my father sending me boarding school far away with my cousin..
i can`t belive this.. i don`t want you to go..
would you run away with me?
baby,you know i will do anything for you..but i can`t..you don`t know what would happen if i did..my dad will kill me..
it`s okaaay i understand i guess *sad*
i can`t believe what`s going on *thinking*
i need you to give something tonight i`m leaving on flight in the morning so i need to see you..
okaay i will sneak out & meet you in the park..
we will meet there`s in 20 mins..

they meet at nearby park..
they both hug each other & he gives her a notes..

begins to cry *tears*
baby,don`t cry you know i love you but i have to go..

i don`t how to show my sincere apology..
i`m not so good in that..

p/s:awaak..
mimpi manis yee?

stupid stupid.

2009-11-05T11:42:00.000-08:00

at almost 4 am.. i awake and that STUPID NIGHTMARE should be blame for this falling tears..i dream about something that i supposed to FORGET.. is`nt that stupid? damn!i don`t know why stupidity always in my side..how could it be happen? i`m not thinking to much about him.. i`m not even remember him before i`m off to sleep.. goshhhh~what my mistake?until the scars that he made in my heart still bleeding? does he cursing me? hell no..he`s not that type of person..

*take a deep breath & try to sleep with the tears*

HAPPY TEAHERS DAY

2009-11-04T20:55:00.000-08:00

today is
HAPPY TEACHERS DAAY
& i like it
because it`s HOLIDAY.

especially for:
My SIBLINGS who`s a techer..

Miss Pauline..
who teached me MATHS
for 2 past years ago.

Miss Pauline..
my english teacher..
it is in block 1.

next is
my teacher rosidah..
my business study`s tutor.
in a block 5..

INACTIVE =/

2009-11-02T03:32:00.000-08:00

arghhh!

my life now
is getting stressful
with a tonne of homeworks
which never done..
& my notes such a mess..

like everyday
i plan want to go home early..

SCHOOL is getting BORED!

jiehah,
be patient,yeah?

after a month we all
are going to have
an holiday!

so relaax!!
just appreciate it!

INACTIVE*INACTIVE*
INACTIVE*INACTIVE*
INACTIVE*INACTIVE

wana fix everything..
& forget about this
fucking shit!

& mum,

if i can..
i want to swim in ur heart
so i know how does it feel.
maybe i don`t understand why
it`s so dificult for you..
but i can be there to cheers
you up..

iloveyousomuch!

lastly,
wish me to be chose tomorrow..
to join the visit to K.K..
AMIN!

p/s:
they ignored each other
& look the other way
but they both know..
it`s not supposed to end
this waaay..

my cindrella guy?

2009-10-30T01:18:00.000-07:00

you know what todaaay i saw my exx?Hue?we`re together when i was studied in elementary school.Its dat wat we kol a love monkey?uhh~yeaah sort of.R U mad?nope,i`m a look the one?no..then why u ask?Ok,I think U R mad..a bit?oh maybe cuz of my text..that`s why..U owez give me dis reason even im right..lol..don`t act like you know me well..See?I`m sory 4 wat I`ve done..I envied weneva U mentioned bout a guy esp he sum1 U used 2 love..but it`s happen a years ago..U dun understand..what?Can U control ur jeoulosy?hm..no..ohh..opss should we change the topic?Definitely yes,Ive several ques 2 ask..hmm?Do U wan 2 ans/not? what`s the ques?R U agree?go ahead..Wats da type of guy dat U find interesting 2 B ur partner life? why u ask me in the sudden? it`s weird,actually.Juz wan 2 know..idk what the answer..BORIIING..aha okaay okaay.. i want to find a guy who really love me through my worst & in even one day i have wrinkles on my face he stil there for me.Sweeet..Its dat ol?how bout da attitude?i don`t really care about that..Rely how about if he smoke?U said ur hart will have difficulty wit dat..it`s depends.Meaning?as i said before,its okay. if he do love me.. will he smoke infront of me? don`t be stupid..I get it now..i think it`s enough,now~it`s my turn..Hm I`m not done yet..I dun satisfied with ur ans..I know U R too demanding..lol so what else do want to ask?How bout da education?dun U so picky wit dat?err it will be better if he have higher education than me..Like me? ahaa yeaah..Den wat else? idk.What F da guy dat truly luv U is a non-muslim?no..it`s imposible.It can be happen..that`s a shit.. it will bring a big problem for me.y?cuz i seldom to done what should be done by a muslim..then how can i teach him to be a muslim?But if he wants 2 convert a muslim 4 U?hm i CONFUSE..stop asking about this..no way..idon`twant.So U dislike non-muslim?stop pushing me.I wan 2 know.seriously,i don`t have the answer.U prefer muslim?EXACTLY,i want him to guide me..it`s the duty for every husband in this world right?You remind me about the cindrella guy in U dream.ohh-- just forget about that.y?it`s just a dream..a fantasy..not for real...If I wan 2 B him?duhhh~annoying..don`t kidding me that way,okay?Im serious..really?Dun pretend U neva know wat i feel..it`s not like that..U owez make fun of me..NEEVEER.U R..you always jump to the conclusion.Lyk u b4..are you trying to take revenge on me?Don`t get me wrong,I juZ WAN 2 remind U ol ppl do dat.WHATSOEVER..i`m sleepy..wana off to bed..Ok.. Gudbye & Gudnyt.same goes to you..Do dream about me 2 B ur cindrealla guy. lalala~ ZzZ

Assalamualaikum,Cinta.

trust me (:

2009-10-29T07:55:00.000-07:00

seriously,i want to post something that involved about today..

felt so fucking damn tired..
buuuut.. it`s okaaaay..

yesterday i`m sleepless..
then after school i went off
to the mall with my ps`s girlss
during evening..

"seven voices,
seven life,
seven different stories,
seven loves

but...

only one chemistry star we could share"

credit to ayun.

while,
at night i`m out with
mamiabah,mamad,iffah,ifaat&wani..
we`re having our lunch together..

opsss~
NOOO--actually it`s a dinner time..

& ted..
black suit with you..
i`m not trying to convince you
about something that i disagree..

but it`s real..
i mean it`s truly from the
bottom of my heart..

ohh converse yg da star right?
lols..

well,
that`a all for tonight..

i feel so exhausted =/
wana have a looooong
rest,please?

unfortunate =/

2009-10-26T06:48:00.000-07:00

pfffff~

yesterday i spent my time
watched liverpool vs manchester united..

which is very very dissapointed..
i hate torres & ngog *scream*

both of them score..
while,man.u lost with 2-0..

& thank god..
i don`t join the chocolatess betting..
if yes,i wil lose ten bucks..

what even worse when..
i receive 6 messages from
liverpool fansss...

FYI,
i will not keep that messages..
so yeaah of course..
i delete all of them..

banciiiikuuu!
then time online pun daa..
urang mtxt..

diskulaaah pun ada ne waaa..
shiiit ehh..

what-a-bad-daaaay!

nevermind..

man.u is still the best!

arghh,da kirai yo! ;(

2009-10-23T09:55:00.000-07:00

i can`t sleep again =/

i have no idea why..

currently listening to
hidup tak selamnya indah
by dygta..

i do this when feeling
moody or lost someone?
yeaah,that`s correct.

actually,
this song is deeply
HURTING me..

i know..
i`ve been rude to you..
but you first..

as you know i just can`t let go..
i neeeed more time,please?

well..
you never understand..

you angry is always over the top..

we are just like CAT & DOG
which i really hate!

ted,i hate you..
can you just stay,
wipe this tears
& be the one for me?

uhhhhhh...
i hope you are just
my ANOTHER CRUSH!
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boy,you stole my heart,
give me back!!

foolish me again.

2009-10-20T07:15:00.000-07:00

i always want to know EVERYTHING
& it`s drive me insaaane!

i know this thing will happen
but i don`t expect time ne!

babiii!this pain is killing me!

why giving hope?
when you did`nt really meant it..

maybe it`s all my fault..
too naive until easily to
trust & get fool..

can you please stop?
i`ve been hurt enough..

pfffff~
tomorrow i`m having my
exam for english o`level..

hoping that i can do it
even my heart`s breaking!

pffff~

2009-10-19T11:33:00.000-07:00

now i`m texting..
with 1 of my bestfriend..

noraini

like it`s been a month
& maybe more we did`nt
contact each other..

cuz

she`s seem like
busy with her life..

then just now she text me..

i miss her braabish..
we share our story..

she said
``rinduu time tane
liat wayang betiga ah..``

me too =/

maybee soooon!

i want to watch NEW MOOON!

she`s now having her exam..

& raa also..
kinda miss him too =/

do the best,yeaaaah?

hopefully you guys will
get higher marks.

anywaay,
i get annoyed with this guy..

he`s totally annoying,
too pushy & too craaazy..

LOL.

seriously,
i really meant that.

sometimes
he scared me a lot.

whatthehell..

stop disturbing my life!!

dude, it`s a GAE`ss gathering.

2009-10-17T03:19:00.000-07:00

yesterdaay,
we hang out again.

i really enjoy that!

there`s a lot of photo taken by us..

tapiiii
anaa inda sempat bagi ku smua..

so just this
that i can publish..

it`s just me
& it`s everywhere(:

& this is us.

i am OUUUUT!
soon i`m going to upload lagi..

p/s:
if you want to hold me..
then tell me that
i`ll never set free..

messed up.

2009-10-16T09:20:00.000-07:00

yes,
i am stubborn
& hard to handle.

i love rebellion
& freedom.

might be soo sarcastic
to whom i detest the most.

too sensitive
until easily to get hurt.

none can be trust
until i keep my own secret.

mistakes,
is my daily routine.

stupidity,
can control me.

hatred,
fulfill in my heart.

i hate when they keep ~~fighting~~..

i hate when they keep ~~screaming~~..

i hate when they keep ~~ignoring~~..

i hate when they keep ~~silent~~..

i really do!

so stop it,please!
it`s hurts me!

i am still..

2009-10-14T22:46:00.000-07:00

who are you now?
are you still the same?
or did you change somehow?
what do you do?

at this very moment
when i think of you

& when i`m looking back
how we were young and stupid
do you remember that?

no matter how i fight it
can`t deny it
just can't let you go

i still need you
i still care about you

now look at me
instead of moving on.

i refuse to see
that i keep coming back
& i`m stuck in a moment
that wasn`t meant to last

wish i could find you
just like you found me
then i would never let you go

yesterday story (=

2009-10-13T12:30:00.000-07:00

yesterday,
i met raa..

i just want to get my diary back..
so that`s why we met again
after.. a month ago..
yeaah still remember that..

now i think it`s not a good decision.

cuz i just can`t described what
i feel when he`s near me..

ever since we meet
i can`t stop thinking of him..

this make me realise
that the love is still there
but..

lalalala~
forget that..

anyway,
i have storry to tell
that involved about anaa~

after went home from school,
i`m off to the library in our village
with her.

* from left: me & anaa~

now she already finish her recruitment..
which is a YEAAAY for me..

anyway
congrats,babe!

we talk,
we laugh,
we share,
we enjoy
&
we remember.

Gladiolus Arcane Exotic Syzters,
never fall apart.

take note of it!

ezaa`,my best buddy (=

2009-10-13T12:00:00.000-07:00

i feel so sleepyy.

but i don`t want to miss this part!

Make your own Glitter Graphics

i get this from
her md-ian friend`s blog.

perhaps,
she don`t mind (:

baah bye.

atuu jaa.

babe,
see you on this fridaaay (:

yes,him (:

2009-10-10T11:54:00.000-07:00

i wake up when he want to call me.

he is..
how should i describe him
maybe..a sweet talker.
i agree

mahn,i kinda like him & even more.

but
i just not sure..
does he really meant that..
or whaat
i scare he just fool me..

anywaay,
my day is not really
full with happiness.

my tears fall.
its`s all because of my marks..

it`s not so good.
hopefully,i will pass..

pray,for me
okaay (:

i also..
text with raa..

pff~it`s hard for me to explain..
but truly,i can`t forget him..

lalalala~
wana sleep.

insomnia.

2009-10-07T13:41:00.000-07:00

yesterday,
i can`t sleep since
my flu is bothering me..

so i wasting my time to japar`s room..
my brother since bilik nya sajuk..

we have a conversation about love..
yes,love!

he said

``when had we hurt someone.
one day u might also feel the same..
& start to feels regret about
what we had done before..``

i think he`s opinion is RIGHT.
cuz what`s goes around,turn around..

anyway,
i miss GAE`ss..

we seldom to contact each other..
i know everyone is busy with their own life..

i always said this too ezaa`

you are not just lost in my sight
but i also lost you from my side.

hey prove it just my wrong theory.
Gladiolus Arcane Exotic Sister FOREVER,right?

i know it`s sound rude..
but until when i`m gonna keep it..

ezaa`,
gomen-ne!

anyway,
here`s some photo screen take by me.
when we had a video call.

babe,
i miss to hanging out with you.
we always shared time toghether..

but not today,
i hope you have your own reason
for doing this..

yet i never regret become
your best buddy.

& you are more than a little
sister to me.

thanks,
for be the 1 before.

if not,
i might already die now (:

Happy Eid Mubarak (:

2009-10-06T03:41:00.000-07:00

heyyyy..
in my previous post..

i forgot too mentioned..
abooout thiss..

for the readerss who know me..

for things i did wrong,
for words which might hurt,
for jokes you can`t take
& for advises you can`t accept

MILLIONSS OF APOLOGISE..

ex-specially for the person,
who.. who always hurt by me.

yaaaw..
today`s my oral for english..

which i got D for the last December..
& an E for the June..
i`m so upset with that..

& tadi..
the question is about camping..
which i never done before..
i never camping..

argggghhhh!
i hate too remember it..

& soon i`m going to have
my written exam
on 21st october..

wishh me..
wishhh mee all the BEST? (;

todaaay also 1 of my niece birthday,

staay cute dear.
babu didi will always you.

i`m BAAACK!

2009-10-01T10:11:00.000-07:00

pfffff~
sorry for the lack of update.

getting lazy with this blog
& getting addicted with FB.

first my topic is about
my EXAAAM!

ohh nooo~
i`m not prepare well!
seriously,it`s suck!
& yet 3 papers to go!

my geo paper..
is sooo soo damn difficult!

actually,
it will be easy
if only i do my revision!
also goes to my bm paper..

my next topic is..
my eldest sister is off
to cairo with her husband
on last tuesday.

with a reason to take a master there.
& cuz of that both of them must make
a decision to leave thier child here..
pooor them!

anyway,
my cousin also off to cairo..
she got a yayasan scholarship..
keep it up girl!

here`s our foot..

* i love this! sweeet!

lastly,my topic is .
he asks me why i`m still single?
why keep on rejected him?

is it cuz of i`m longing for someone?
i`m not ready yet to involved in a relationship?
or is it because you are still bleeding?

me?
don`t know the answer..
i just happy being single..
so i think i should continue it..

until a right guy is appear in my life..

lalala~
whatsoever!

ted,dakirai yo [ihy]

2009-09-16T20:12:00.000-07:00

Avril Lavigne - Tomorrow.

p/s:This is an avril lavigne video where she is crying cause her grandpa die that day when sha was on tour..away from him and the rest of her family but that didn´t stop her to sing and she dedicate the song to her grandapa..

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
yeah I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today
(Today)

[Chorus:]

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
it's a different day,

(Tomorrow)

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't

Give me a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah,
and I know I'm not ready,

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah,
maybe tomorrow

Tomorrow... it may change
Tomorrow... I'm gonna change

It is hard to believe that a man is telling the truth
when you know that you would lie if you were in his place.

anyway,

ekaa H 18thB (;

may god bless you!
succes in life!
& i wish you every happiness!

lalalala~
ily!

S-H-I-T!

2009-09-15T13:04:00.000-07:00

yeaah,you are right!

that`s me!

i always hold what i feel,
i`m AFRAID of being hurt!

H:HATRED
U:UNBEARABLE
R:REGRET
T:TEARS

some words are better leave unspoken!

anyway,
somone try to get my hp number
by the reason of to awake me during the sahur..

& it make me remind of someone..

lalala~

Simple Plan - No Love.

Staring out into the world across the street
You hate the way your life turned out to be
He's pulling up in the drive-way and you don't make a sound
Cause you always learned to hold the things you want to say
You're always gonna be afraid

There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh, so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here

Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces
You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile
If these walls could talk they would have so much to say
Cause everytime you fight the scars are gonna heal
But they're never gonna go away...

There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh, so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
So what will you do?

You're falling
You're screaming
You're stuck in the same old nightmare
He's lying
You're crying
There's nothing left to salvage
Kick the door cause this is over
Get me out of here!

p/s:
THANKS for the song.

Happy Holiday!!

2009-09-14T18:39:00.000-07:00

i can not wait for this coming syawal!

& also my EXAM ;/

PTE M exam for the lower sixth
start in the first day of the open school!

ohhh nooo!
& i scare to tell my parent`s
cuzz kuu takut lappy kuu kana tapau!!

goo goo tell them? noooo~ just tell them! nooo! tell~ no i saaaaid!

ahaa still thinking~

HERE MY SCHEDULE:
29TH SEPT `09 - GEOGRAPHY & ENGLISH
29TH SEPT `09 - GEOGRAPHY
30TH SEPT `09 - BAHASA MEALAYU2
03RD OCT `09 - BUSINESS STUDY1
05TH OCT `09 - BAHASA MELAYU1
O6TH OCT `09 - BUSINESS STUDY2

lalala~

hope i`m in the good mood
so i can start to do my revison :D

& yeaah,
i forgot..

anaa~

Make your own Glitter Graphics

since this year you are 20 years old.
so here 20 wishes for you babe =D

1. hopefully good will bless you & forget your sins.
2. be happy with family & the beloved one beside.
3. i pray for your success in your life.
4. perhaps your are just fine in doing your recruitment.
5. be a nice girl than before :p
6. always be the ARCANE.
7. hoping that you always remember GAE`ss.
8. you are always my sister.
9. may you always have many things to laugh at.
10. hope now you have a real good friend.
11. pray for your dreams to come true.
12. HOPING
13. GLADIOLUS
14. ARCANE
15. EXOTIC
16. SYZTERS
17. NEVER
18. FALL
19. APART
20. AMINN!

i mish you,babe!

this video was taken at our last gathering.
it`s held 3 moths ago..
i think so..

GAE`ss,
wana see you soon!

p/s:L♥ve is like a puzzle. When you're in l♥ve, all the pieces fit but when your heart gets broken, it takes a while to get everything back together.

ted,
i`m not so good in saying of GOODBYE..
i scare i might cry there..
so i make a decision not to come..

& yeaah~
a great thanks for being honest :D

5E`ss gather-ink & SUNGAI-ink.

2009-09-13T12:46:00.000-07:00

todaaay,
i went out with exx-5e`ss..
we had our sungkai together at CA MUHD.

the photo of ekaa & nadss was candid by me
then i try to edit it (;

for me it`s look awesome!
isn`t it?

heeehs (;
it`a great day for me!
thanks a lot for those who came today (;

ekaa,
miera,
yanti,
nadss,
fateen,
kimbo,
nawy,
nabil,
mingo,
maiyo,
haadi,
arif,
azri & his GF.

i also saw S.
me? don`t like him!
he`s soo soo annoying~

pfff~
mahn,youbettergotohell!

ohh~sixth september.

2009-09-06T01:00:00.000-07:00

at 12 o` clock,
my phone rang.

it is his birthday alarm..

& honestly,
i feel so bad if nda greet eaa..

sound stupid?
yeaaah..i think so..

whatsoever!

idk why,
so here am i..

RAAA,Happy Birthday =D

my

idk if this still matter..

but..
for me..

pfff~
mahn,it`s hard to explain..

it take a minute to have a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone,
& a day to love someone.

but it take a lifetime to forget someone.

& i am that type of person..

perhaps,
one day it will completely fade away
as what you did to me.

soon,
i`m going to burn all of this stuff..

wish me to have the courage,yeah?

lalala~

my niece also birtday today,
nana (;

* later i will upload her cake`s birthday.

& actually,
today i suppose to have a gathering with GAE`ss..

it happen in a sudden cuz
anaa is holiday right now..

but ezaa`
have her exam in this coming tuesday..

while me?
daddy won`t let me!!

okaaay then..

duhhhhh~

HALF ALIVE!

2009-08-31T20:46:00.000-07:00

i just arrived home a few minutes ago..

FYI,PTE M student are suppose to be home at 12.30
but just because of my stomach is indeed pain
i am at home early a hour than usual.
& i missed 2 classes.

i got gastric!!
feeling HALF ALIVE D=

last night, i am not in the mood to had my sahur..
i fought again,with him..

idk,what is our actual relation..
but for me he`s just another brother..
too caring & too loving..

& today our war begin again..
ted,i`m tired with this..

it`s all happen cuz of the foolish me..
but you..

too disappointing..

pfffff~
just go awaaaaaay from my mind!
don`t bother me!

glory for man.u!!

2009-08-29T11:51:00.000-07:00

YEAAAAAY!

just now,
i`m watching
Manchester United vs Arsenal..

& FYI,
it`s WORTH!!

man.u won (:
2-1.

even

owen was not there plaay-ing!
there are still the winner (;

well~
what can i said?

LOL.

anyway,
my shoe for this coming Aidilfitri
is already coming (;

even the colour is not the same
with what i had seen before in
the catalog but still it`s
look BEAUTIFUL in my eyes..

& also
THANKS to my second eldest sister..
for give me her shoe..

this happen cuz our feet size
is just the same..

the best thing about it is..
the shoess that she gave is still new.

1 of it never been used,
while the 2 shoess,
she`s just wore it once..

it`s a GREAT ADVANTAGE
for me!! (;

ehh kaamuu,
Manchester United manang!

NYAMAN TIDUR KU NE (=

ramadhan (:

2009-08-28T08:50:00.000-07:00

a week of ramadhan (;
yesterday was 2nd of my family`s tadarus.

first was held in my home,
on 23rd august 09.

& yeterday was the 2nd daay..
it`s was held at ka diana house,
at jangsak :D

on that day,
1 of my niece are played with the stickerss..
she`s adriana.

so everyone`s so sporting by just let my niece stick it..
on the face of everyone (;

it`s sooo sooo ENJOYABLE..

errr~
this is for someone who`s so pig-headed!

dude,define it for me!!
can you??

cuz
i seems lost!!

lalalala~

lasty,
i mishh them..

i mishh evrything from the past of me..
i mish GAE`ss..

ezaa`
currently busy with
MP thingy & hostel.

while anaa~
she`s now having her
RECRUIT.

it`s a YEAYY (:
for me after the end of september.

miless awaay?
GAE'sss still a SYZTERSSSSS!

hmm okaay then,
i want to have my sahur!
duuuuh~

lalalala~ i`m back!

2009-08-25T22:48:00.000-07:00

i feel like wana blog-ing so here i am!

today is 3rd ramadhan :D

HAPPY FASTING MOTHH TO ALL THE MUSLIM!

FYI,
paaarutt kuu sakit aar
& now it`s almost 2.

like i`m gonna hold this in 4 hourss more..
ohh noooo!

everybody keep telling me
``JIE SABAR``

so right now i`m trying..

KUUUUSUUUT kuu ehh..

anyway,
yesterday jun exam result is already released..

& to bad i got E maahn.

i also went to my old school :D
smsab..

&& i think he saw me..
imhsb!

lalala~
just forget it!

heyyy,
here some photo taken by
adik my beloved sister
when we had a walk to
visit our old classroom..

& this? while i`m waiting..

i was being candid by ADIK..
THANKS sis!

honestly,
i felt so disappointing with myself..
cuz my parent`s i know they hope to much on me..
but in the end i just can`t achieve it..

furthermore,
this exam is not for free..
& i also entered tuition class for this exam..
i`m just wasting their money..

& now?
my dad ask me to sit for
this coming November exam..

which cost higher than before since
it`s label as a late candidate...

dad,
forgive me for this,yeaah?

i wana try harder next time..
i promise you this! ily!

okay then,
BYEBYE!

wana off to sleep =D

ohhh so tired.

2009-08-07T07:49:00.000-07:00

today is so tiring!

todaay,
i`m ouut to kb around 12.
to participate my cousin`s weeding.

there?
i had met the old of friend of mine.

siii-ezad.
he used to study at smsab.
but now maybe at smlk.

after that,
we off to wa huo & jolibee.

pffffff~

we went home at 7.

i think that`s all for todaaay.

want to have my sleep.

wish me to have a sweet dream,
no more nightmare.

anyway..

i had change my song..

i always listen to this song
before i`m off to bed.

i think i had this kind of habits
since 2 months or 3 months ago.

Bintang Di Surga - Peterpan

Masih ku merasa angkuh
Terbang kenanganku jauh
Langit kan menangkapku
Walau kan terjatuh

Dan bila semua tercipta
Hanya untukku merasakan
Semua yang tercipta
Hampa hidup terasa

Lelah tatapku mencari
Arti untukku membagi
Menemani langkahku
Namun tak berarti

Oh bintang di surga
Berikan cerita
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata

Oh bintang di surga
Berikan cerita
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata

Oh bintang di surga...

Sheila On7 - Tunjuk Satu Bintang

Coba kau tunjuk satu bintang
Sebagai pedoman langkah kita
Jabat erat hasil karyaku
Hingga terbias warna syahdu

Akan ku ukir
Satu kisah tentang kita
Di mana baik dan buruk
Terangkum oleh indah

Akan kucerna
Semua karya cipta kita
Di mana hitam dan putih
Terbalut hangatnya cinta

Dan bila semua terwujudkan oh...
Di sisimu selalu hariku

Drive - Bersama Bintang
Senja kini berganti malam
Menutup hari yg lelah
Dimanakah engkau berada
Aku tak tahu dimana

Pernah kita lalui semua
Jerit, tangis, canda, tawa
Kini hanya untaian kata
Hanya itulah yg aku punya

Tidurlah selamat malam
Lupakan sajalah aku
Mimpilah dalam tidurmu
Bersama bintang

Sesungguhnya aku tak bisa
Jalani waktu tanpamu
Perpisahan bukanlah duka
Meski harus menyisakan luka

moody! D=

2009-08-05T04:46:00.000-07:00

arghhh~
i`m not IN THE FAWKING MOOD!

my WALLET..
i had lost it!

i start to notice this from yesterday..

in my business study period,
which was my 1st class on that day..

tutor roslin:sapa ada duit damit $5-$5?
then i checked my bag to take out my wallet,
but it was`nt there.

so i tried to think positive..

by make my own suggestion
that i forgot to bring it.

at home,
it cud`nt find it!!!

as what i remember,
the day before it`s still with me..

even after i went home from the school,
i still remember that..

then now?

where the hell is it?

my wallet will return,right?
AMIN!!

another story.........................................

at the school,
while i was waiting for daddy
to fetch me around 4pm.

there was a girl waiting too..
then her fone rang!

``I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain?t going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay
Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever!``

listen to this song,
it`s a OUCH for me..

flashback when,
he tried to conquer my heart,
i used to think that he just my another crush.

flashback when,
after he called me for the 1st time,
i had accept him as the boyfriend of mine.

everything is a RUSH...

just for a second,
i felt so weepy..

& asked myself..

``why?what is this?is it worth``

thank god,
i can hold my tear.

for me,
sometimes it`s better to be ignorant...

but,
idk why today i become too sensitive
if something involve about him.

maybe after knowing that
he`s been HURT by that girl?

pffff~
hopefully,it`s not TRUE.

star-shines,
i wish you every happiness.

my crushie.

2009-08-03T13:27:00.001-07:00

i wana share about someone here.

his name start with a leter A
then the next words start with a letter M.

many ppl call him with the name start
with the letter M.

guess who?

him?
i like him..
he is so clever..
he is too polite..
he is too talented..
he is good-looking..
he is so cute to the max..
he is..

what else?
bluuuuur saya ehh.

the point is he can caught my attention..

however,
i seldom to have a conversation with him.
we always just says hello to each other.
i never flirt him or even tried.

euuuw~ no waaay!
i`m not going to try that.

in my suggestion,
he don`t have any interest in a girl..

hey,
don`t get wrong by think that he`s a ~~GAY~~.

no~it`s not that..
i think he want to more focus in his study..
or he is ~~taken~~

however,
my opinion was proof WRONG.

when...

hopefully,
i`m the one you mentioned about..

FYI,
i`m not so good in making a confession..

futhermore,my feeling..
it will erase day by day..

& hell yeah ofcourse,
i never forget my deal with ezaa!

~~SINGLE~~ until graduate \\=

but,
if i fall are he willing to catch me?
i just scared he did not..

lovelovelovelovelovelove~

30th,goodbye to july.

2009-07-30T10:05:00.000-07:00

hello readers,
out there!

please forgive me for the lack of update!

lately,i just no interest in here.

idk why..

maybe nowadays i`m busy..
with a tonne of homework given
by my beloved tutors..

here the continuation,
my celebration was held on the 20th july at my home.

THANKS for those who`s participate on that day.

my WAN BFF;
Ryna & Kerul,
Ainy & Dhuan.

Dudes Of 5E`ss;
Kimbo,
Ruzdy,
Asnawi,
Azri,
Hadi,
Nabil,
Ameng,
Mai,
& Shukri my ps mate.

none of babes of 5E`ss are there.
maybe cuz of it was held in NIGHT.

nevermind,
my party still going on.

i also thankful to
my sister sii adik,
eaan,
liana
& liah

for the lovely greeting in their own blog.

lastly star-shines,
wish me to have my own happiness
without you in my daily life.

i`m BACK!

2009-07-29T07:33:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum!

almost a month i did`nt post anything..

i`m too
buuuuussssyy!

1st was my assement week,
then my birthday celebration
which actually was canceled by me.

cuz`
when i ask permission to my mum.
her answer ``jua tanya abah``

as i know,
she did that..

ONLY when he ~~disagree~~ with my wish.
so i don`t make any move to ask daddy.

but FYI,
my plan still running with my plan B.
it is hang out at mall gdg with my bestest & GAE`ss.

on the last night of being 17th..
mummy said
``die,abah nyuruh dah tuu ko manggil kawan muu``

i was a bit suprised in that moment.

so in that night jua
i just sent then a simple message.
that`s why i call it as..

``indeed-rush-celebration!``

then then then..

tommorow i`m going to continue this story..

cuz my eyes is so sleepy \\=

anyway,
i never know that my blog look ~~lame~~
using internet explorer!

you out there,
i suggest you to visit my blog using mozilla firefox.

p/s: //m\\ for sure,i like him & i wish to tell.

ohh assesment week!

2009-07-08T00:38:00.000-07:00

heyy readerss!

i hereby just want too inform this blog is
~~UNACTIVE~~
for a moment.

bcuz`

now i`m having assessment week!

wish me all the best,?

& won`t forget,
on 20th July..

12 days more to go to my
18th birthday.

especially,

my WAN BFF,
Gladiolus Arcane Exotic Syzters,
Babes & Dudes of 5E`s [08]

you`re invited to my birthday celebration.

ohh please
for those who`s not feeling so well on that day,
i`m sorry to say..

~~DEAR,YOUR NOT WELCOME.~~

take note of it

p/s:
Used to believe in love
Used to believe in fairy tales
Since my heart's been crushed
I don't believe in much

~~I NEED HELP!~~

Don't know which way to turn
Figure it out for myself
I've just started to learn
There's no such thing as fairy tales

Twinkle twinkle little star
Why do my dreams seem so far
Up above the world so high

Won't somebody tell me why?
Can you help me out?
Can you tell me what love is all about?

tears,stop please.

2009-07-05T07:58:00.001-07:00

right now,
i`m in tears & i just can`t stop crying.

it`s tortured me.

ohh gosh~

seriously,
i want to forget him..

but i can`t forced myself
to accept a new guy in my life.

just leave me alone,
i can heal this pain by myself.

so saad~

i was loved but not forever.

sometimes i wish i'm a robot with no heart.
then i won't feel pain and i won't complain.
a person in love is bound to get hurt.

what's hurt the most
is being betrayed by the person that you love.

more picnic & BBQ photos.

2009-07-02T17:05:00.000-07:00

as what i had said in my previous post i will upload the picture,
so here it is.

5e`s 08 gathering.

this is miera,
the photographer girl.

-chilling.

-BBQ

-enjoy our meal.

- have a our own blast,relax & enjoy.

-on our way to the beach.

- at beach.

- kimbo.

- ruzdy.

- me.

- mieraa.

- zureen.

- yanti.

- hadi.

- mas

THANKS a lot miera.

& also

5e`s,
THANKS for the great past 2 years.

i`m off.

2009-06-30T16:58:00.000-07:00

good morning!

yaaw,
i wake up early today around 5 in the morning.

cuz`
last nite i sleep early after
had a short conversation with azieq

tatty, you slowly rip my heart out with your words. it`s hurt me badly like a knife. *arigato. i'm sick and tired of your attitude. i'm feeling like I don't know who you are. you tell me that you <3 me, then you cut me down. & here's to you and your temper yes, I remember what you said last night. i know that you see what you're doing to me tell me, why? well,i get so confused and frustrated with what have you done. just forget what i'm trying to say. counted all the scars that you made in my heart, i`m off with this. off with the repeating history & i`m getting sick of a promises. it`s just made to be broken. this time you are not sorry, b'cuz i know, even you are in madness but you really meant it dear.

single = better

anyway,
last monday,i went off to salon with kalina.
i just want to have a new look.

so i think i just cut half of it?
yeaaah~ i think so.

but it`s still long.
cuz` mummy won`t let me..
i perfectly sure.

quizz.

2009-06-28T12:23:00.000-07:00

i just woke up around 12 in midnight.

then suddenly my secondary friend invite me to have a chat room.

they are my mate when i was studied in form 1 until 3 at smsab.

it`s been a long time,
i had lost contact with them
accept 5e`ss & for them who study the same school with me in PTE M.

them,
remind me back of my old school & raaraa.

err him?
i`m done with wishing he`s still here with me.

JUST FORGET IT.

anyway,
here some quiz that i answer from facebook.

WHAT KIND OF LOVER?
You are a Shy Lover.
You are one shy kid. Relationships are hard to find, but once you find one, you are sweet and happy. Watch out! don't become desperate. Your separation from humanity might lead to you clinging to someone too tightly. Loosen up and relax. If they love you, they wont leave you, and you are VERY lovable. Also, don't be afraid to tell your love how you feel!

WHY YOU ARE STILL SINGLE?
Too Picky.
Too Picky: Don't be too picky or too quick to judge, give them a chance!

WHAT`S UR GREATEST FEAR?
Fear of Love.
Couples only get on your nerves, for your greatest fear is love. You've probably been in many relationships in the past that failed miserably, or maybe you've never been in a relationship, which has left you bitter. It's gotten to a point where you hate the thought of love, but you probably would feel differently if you had someone all to yourself...

You fear never finding your one and only.

Element: Fire
Sacred animal: Dragon

WHO WILL YOU END UP WITH?
Your Enemy!
The one person that you find is the most annoying human on the planet. They are the opposite gender of you, and you were destinied to be with them.

WHAT KIND OF BOY SHOULD YOU BE WITH?
Bestfriend Boy.
You need a bestfriend boy. It sounds very boring, but it's really not. This could turn into the most passionate relationship ever! You need someone that is just fun to be around, without all the mushy gushy stuff all the time. You want to be able to be yourself around a guy, and just hangout like you do with your friends. You also probably value being able to have a conversation that has to do with more than how much you "miss" or "love" eachother. If you have a bestfriend that's a guy, don't be afraid to DATE HIM! He could turn out to be the perfect guy for you. And if you don't have a guy bestfriend already, then find one! If you meet a guy you might be interested in, see if you can just be friends before you climb into the relationship.

WHAT KIND OF GIRL ARE YOU?
The Innocent one.
The quiet, outspoken one. Often the peace keeper. You tend to be the one that people turn to for help. To guys you're the cute one, to girls you're the best friend.

WHAT KIND OF GIRL ARE YOU?
Sweet..

WHAT DO PEOPLE REMEMBER YOU FOR?
Your Attitude..

ARE YOU CHILDISH?
I'm 69% childish!..

yeaaay!
holiday is being extended for a week,

but don`t too happy.
cuz` out there 25 people in brunei who`s suffer from swine flu.

hope soon they can find the cure for this disease.

25th June 09 - 5e`ss gather

2009-06-27T04:47:00.000-07:00

on that day i had alots of fun with them.

-zureen,nads,miera,yanti,fariza,mas,naziratul,
kimbo,maiyo,mingo,nabil,ruzdy,wadud,azrie,
iskandar,hadi & syahmi.

for those who`s absent,i miss you guyss.

especially GAE`ss.

- my bestest buddies ; ezaa` & anaa~

anaa~
can`t come cuz of her recruit.

while ezaa`
her parent`s won`t let her go.

& also

- teacher pauline,it`s too difficult for us to reach her \\=

& 5E`ss,
don`t forget on this 5th July 09,
we`re going to have our gather again at mall gdg.

perhaps,all of us can come.

since my fone are still in the same situation,
so i did`nt take a picture of that day.

but no worries,
cuz some of my friends did.

here`s some photo taken by kimbo.

my best mate.
* smile.

- me with him. *kuu nada tau ea ambil gambar*

- us. * big smile.

- chilling.

- & bill,bhapa ko? =.= CUTE ko aar.

- dudez of 5[E]xtereme`ss in SMSAB`08

- that`s me. *GAAUK,eyy mliaat urang BBQ bah tuu*

- trying to check is`t okay if we use this way.

- that`s me again.

- at beach, from right: me,yanti & mieraa.

5e`ss 08,
THANKS for the SWEET memory.

there`s alot of picture taken by miera,
but now i`m waiting for her response tapi nadaa..

tadi ku text ea & ea cakap esuk ea UPLOAD.
& soon if i get the photoss i will try to upload it here.

bytheway,
i really hope this holiday is being exteneded for a week!
AMIN!AMIN!AMIN!

if yes,I LOVE IT!

tapi i read from brudiret,macam sure dah.

have a check;
http://www.brudirect.com/index.php/200906271504/First-Stories/public-urge-delay-school-reopening.html

tatty = ineedhim

2009-06-24T09:38:00.000-07:00

Neyo-Mad

Oh oh oh, oh oh oh...
Oh oh oh...

[Verse 1]

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Verse 2]

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out].
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Bridge]

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

tyy,i`m so sorry..i did LIE.

WHATSOEVER!

2009-06-23T12:03:00.000-07:00

i`m suffer cuz of my stomach.

cuz`

i had lost my appetite since this evening.

& that`s the reason why i feel so weak.

i online..

he text me..
* smile.

as usual we fight again..

i don`t understand him..

canaakan tuu aar.

i remember he asked me to be honest,
if there`s something i dislike about him,
but when i did so~

ea ucaap akuu tukang complaint!

who should be blame for that!

& it`s getting worst.

when he text this....

tatty:well~ i`m not your dream guy..
teddy:ohh.
teddy:good at least you knew it.
tatty:see?you never make me feel better
teddy:but do you make me feel that way when you even hard to trust me?
tatty:how many time should i tell you?....

blablablablabla.

i don`t hate him,
i just hate myself for being...
uhh i ruined everything.

WHATSOEVER!

today,i hang out with my siblings in the mall gdg`ss.

we watch this movie

i wish i gets a chance to rewrite my life back!

anyway,
zac efron is so damnly gorgeous in this movie.

i think i have crush with him?

naaah~
never think of it!

lee min ho,
is still my big fan!

have a look some rare photo of
lee min ho.

but still,
he look so HOT!

*kiraaai2!

hate this.

2009-06-22T05:48:00.000-07:00

damn it!

mummy~
i can`t sleep.

just bcuz of that NIGHTMARE!

it`s scared me a lots.
* fallen tears.

ohh please,
this is worthless.

just GO AWAY from my life!

yesterday was 20th.

2009-06-21T11:32:00.000-07:00

actually,
last night i wana post this however there`s a lot of circumstances.

i hereby,

just wana share this..

yeaaay~
now my birthday is COUNT DOWN!

29 days to go.

so for this year my age are coming 18th.

getting older?

yeaah,it is! \\=

i disagree with him when he said this..

``age is an ugly thing, and it goes on getting worse``
* pfff~

i think..

``as we grow older we grow both more foolish and wiser at the same time``

kankan?

who`s agree with me legs up please? d;

i have 2 wish for this year.

1. shhh~ it`s my secret.

2. i want to be a cheerful & successful young lady.
* huge smile.

mamiabah = my inspiration,

my eldest siblings = my challenge,

wan bff & gae`ss = my motivation,

& tatty = my rainbow.

pfff~kusuut.

2009-06-17T12:34:00.000-07:00

it`s already at 3:35am.

but i can`t close my eyes to sleep.

whiineeeess~

tatty,
i`m into you.

but

idk until when my feeling will stay
you should know better.

that`s why i don`t wana give any hope.

& yeah~

hopefully,in this 2 years will make any different between us.

if yes,i will think of it ;D

p/s:i`mgoingtomissyou,myguardianangel!

STRONG-HEARTED as tatty said.

2009-06-16T01:49:00.000-07:00

i`m a young lady who should enjoy life & be happy not being moody in every mins of the day.

arghh!

˙ɯıɥ ɟo oƃ ʇǝן oʇ ʇsǝpɹɐɥ ʎɯ ʇɐ ƃuıʎɹʇ ǝɹǝɥ ɯ,ı sı ʇɔɐɟ ǝɥʇ ʇnq puıɯ ʎɯ uı sʎɐʍןɐ s,ʇı ,,¡ɹǝʌǝɹoɟɯıɥǝʌoןı,,

ENOUGH is ENOUGH.

& this?

dedicated for the person who know me especially you..

dear tatty,
my guardian angel.

it's amazing when STRANGERS become FRIENDS,

but its sad when FRIENDS become STRANGERS.

Soon you are going to abroad again & i`m the last 1 who knew it.
* pfff~ whines.

THANKS for that!

I just want to let you know.

I never want to lose u as a friend!

I
I
I
I
I
V

I met u as a STRANGER.

Now i have u as a FRIENDS.

I hope we meet in our next walk of life where friendship never ends.

♥I♥may♥not♥be♥the♥

most♥important♥person♥

in♥your♥LiFE♥

I♥just♥hope♥that♥

when♥you♥hear♥

my♥name
♥you
♥smile♥&♥say

That's My Friend..

1st day of holiday.

2009-06-14T07:04:00.000-07:00

hmm~ whines!

actually today i feel so emo!

i think it`s been a week i don`t remember him but todaay..
i heard something bad about him,it`s really-really bad!
i just don`t want to share that story within my siblings.

then GAE`ss? uhh ezaa`
nowadays she difficult to get online.

while tatty~
i`m so sorry for being rude,
i don`t want to mentioned his name as your wish
& thanks for your warmth cheers.
but still..i don`t say yes.

to make me forget that thing i try to make myself busy by changing my blog skin.

it have a new look now.

see? there`s a lots of pink fallen star. suka kuu!
* big smile!

todaay it`s 14 june `09,
my very truly closest sister birthday!

she`s one of important in my life ;D

cuz she is my witness,who sees me at my worst & best! she is my partner in crime,my best companion, someone who knows when i fake a smile,a listener,conspirator,a counselor,a sharer of delights & sorrows too. she is also my teacher,she teach me about fairness,cooperation,kindness & caring.

she`s almost my twin!

have a blaast dear even mamiabah is not here =c

honestly, i feel envy with her.
she look really happy with her day ;D

& i wonder am i going to be happy during my birthday party?
idk yet, i hope on that day i will happy in the fullest.

next,i`m going to tell about our last day of school.

12th june `09.

it`s cross-country event for PTE M.

the result:

the 1st champion: indera mahkota.
the 2nd champion: indera wijaya.

the 3rd champion: indera putra.
the 4th champion: indera pahlawan.

i satisfied with this cuz indera mahkota is still the winner!
HWAAITI!

our photo is published in borneo buletin in today date err i think it`s in the 1st page or the last 1, just have a look.

this is the reason why my leg is injured now.
jalan pun macam apaa \\=

it`s WORTH plaang!
cuz i got medal, as the 11th.
* thumps up!

but i start to feel KCARIAN kan mami D=
paa~ nda urang kan dikusut & diinggul.
my fone is BROKEN DOWN!

ohh pampered me! \\=

what a hetic weekend \=

2009-06-07T00:22:00.000-07:00

hello (;

today is weekend but however i have no leisure time.

there`s alot of things that i should done & i suppose to start doing it last night err but i did`nt!

task to do:

1. geography subject.

my tutor gave me a homeworks to do in population topic & also in next tuesday i`m going to have my test since my overall assessment mark for geography just 45% so i want to make a good effort on it (;

2. malaay subject.
malay? nowadays my class was take over by the UBD teacher that`s why we had homework to done & tutor azim, my sastera teacher, also gave me homework.

3. bussiness study.
i was elected as a financial manager & there were 5 workers under me. financial department is so damn difficult is hard for us to searched for the information. actually first i want to be a sales & marketing manager but saiful pick it first. or i should chose IT? it`s akim position but it`s much easier he just have 2 employees under him. ohh pleshhh it`s too difficult for me!

i hope i can finish all of this by today!

anyway,soon i will try to upload some photos that i take yesterday during FRUIIIT party =D

GAE`ss gathering.

2009-06-05T06:53:00.000-07:00

dear blog.

today i feel very HAPPY ;D

last night i slept over at kalina`s house.

this photo was taken at kalina`s car \= i asleep! however in midnight at my sister house, i hardly to sleep as what i had thought cuz it`s 1 of my behaviour in this time being so to prevent myself for doing a stupid thing i try to finish up my business study homework.

* what`s wrong?

hey! all of my stuff are pink that`s why i took picture of it.

in morning,i woke up around 7 as what we had planned we went out to tasek lama to jog after that we have our breakfast in gdg then also in the same area kalina bought me a ROSE.

i love it! it`s name is charm eve. eve? is ezaa` suggestion (;

actually it`s come from a word of believe, i just want to make it more simple & short. guyss wish for eve, to grow healthy. cuz` if eve can survive until syawal month i can get 30 bucks from my 2nd eldest sister. so wish me to win this challenge.

in evening (;

06th june 09,it`s Gladiolus Arcane Exortic`s gathered. now,we had been truly separated. me? study at PTE M & ezaa`? staying at hostel of MD. while anaa~? she soon want to dissapear from my life for 3 months. arggh~ i want mamiabah agree to transfer me at MD. hm i just scare if mum won`t let me if i ask. i will try,someday? hmm just wait for the right time to spell it infront on my parent`s.

ezaa` & anaa~

``chiip!chiip!chiip!`` ahaaa! thanks for the laughter. don`t ask why we`re laughing cuz` we`re CRAZY! & freaak? that`s the way we roll it.

best buddies,THANKS for this happiness! ;D

p/s:

imishhimsomuch! &idon`tknowuntilwhenthisfeelingwilldissapearfrommyheart

there`s alot of thing that remind me of him.x(

Happiness (;

2009-06-01T23:29:00.000-07:00

now it`s already june & july is coming soon. i did`nt ask for anything, i jush want the happiness.

hell no~ i don`t want the last tragedy happen again in my life.
* 2 thumps up (;

i`m type of girl that can be so hurt but still can smile & try to brighten up people surrounding me.

so for now on i want to return in a track of life that i used to live before.

smile from heaven.

i falling love at first sight when kalina show me this photo it`s a a moon & 2 stars. so cute! kuu sukaa! (:

this is me! cool right? i just found a new web to edit a picture. thanks to deyyy for telling me (;

& in order to make myself busy i aso edited my best buddy photos, it`s become their primary photo at fs.

this is anaa (;

soon she`s going to have her recriut. first i feel a bit shocked & worried when she inform me.

i just can`t believe it but that`s the fact. i hope she can survive life in there.

hope in the next 3 months, she`s still alive. ahaa d;

while this is ezaa`.

she`s the youngest among the ĞĽãđiõĽûs ã®çãñє єxõ®tiç sýztє®s✯,,

err now she`s studying at MD. i hope she can succes & me as well.

i wish both of us will study at UBD 2 years later. AMIN!

& actually tommorow we guys wana hang out at the mall gdg but i not sure yet. this gather was being post poned for about 2 week maybe? & ezaa` want to post pone lagi cuz she had a planned with her md`s friends then when i told her next week anaa is busy. her responsed just ``hmm liat laa.`` pffff! whines.

ezaa`
sorry to write this i don`t know are you going to read or not, i just wana let you know i felt disappointing with you.

getting better? i think so~

2009-05-28T07:35:00.000-07:00

playing with my names ;D

W - can be funny and dumb at times
A - crazy
J - is very sexual
I - is really sweet & romantic
H - stick to one
A - crazy
H - stick to one

my opinion..

funny & dumb?
yeaah~ if i hang out with WAN BFF i tend to be a joker(;

crazy?
it always happen,especially a moment with GAE`ss cuz` we love stupid,silly & crazy things.

very sexual?
whooopsy~ i have no idea about this!

really sweet & romantic?
idk~ do you mean by giving chocolate, card & whatsoever? i think yeaah i did so.

stick to one?
i might easily have a crush but i try to be the one!

mummy~

i WANT this i-phone plessssh! i wish tho have it! OMG~it`s totally the perfection of my taste!

today i just found out that anaa~ my buddy is going to have her recruit on this coming 14th june adik`s birthday (; THANK GOD! make it BRIGHT babe & remember GAE`s promish bright as a ★ shines!

& 1 more thing don`t mention about barcelona infront of me or get hell out of here! ahahaa~ don`t be serious it just mean to be a joke! it`s lame baah when i remember sukri sing me a song about man.u got defeated!

blow me the happiness~ can you?

2009-05-26T23:58:00.000-07:00

goshhh~why punishing me like this? =`c

ziee,i think it`s enough until here i don`t want to continue to the next step as what we had planned just be FRIEND!

hmm you are just the same! your promise just leave as an empty words, so why i should i stay when you even hard to trust me?moreover, i hate you for being that way i know who am i & ask your mum to hands off from my life. FAREWELL!

hmm what else?

anaa~

gave me a love letter! d;
so here it goes..

tertariklah kepada seseorang yang dapat membuat mu tersenyum, kerana hanya kegembiraan yang dapat membuat hari-hari yang gelap menjadi cerah & jika seseorang yang amat istimewa dalam hidup kamu telah pergi janganlah terlalu bersedih terimalah kenyataan sekurang-kurangnya dia pernah membahagiakan kamu.

p/s:thanks babe & see you on this friday (;

tommorow`s thursday? lalala~ at last my tuition class was over!

i feel like want to go somewhere that can make me calm & release this tension! hmm school is tiring~ i start to feel bored with it =/ uhh take a deep breath & remember my ambition is to graduate with a better result right? so make it right~ for mami & abah i will do it (;

rara..

does he ever think of me? =/ stupid thought. my life move on, you will stay in my heart until time make me forget you! wish him every happiness & i wish you are still mine~

& also cannot wait THE FINAL of UEFA!

hmm~ thinking!

2009-05-26T22:36:00.000-07:00

hmm~

i saw him today!

yeaah as i thought this tears will fall again it`s really hurt me when i saw him it`s been a long time~ raa i stupidly mish you, i mish you so much =`c & the most hurt was he`s not mine anymore..hope time will make me forget him? uhh honestly i jush can`t let go of him! booodoooh ee~ it`s hard & hurt! =/

hmm alots of homework to do! i`m off now (;

errr i forgot something~

hmm i also meet ainy (; & GAE`ss!

my BEST BUDDIESS;;

is like a SISTER, we may ARGUE & FUSS a lot but NO MATTER what happens we`re alwesh going to be STUCK with each other (:

& Teacher Mawarni =D

THANKSS for the ferrero rochere (;

p/s:ziee!!!if kan kelahi with teddy baah cari pasal taah!

a new life start to began (;

2009-05-24T00:16:00.000-07:00

lalalala~

now~

i want to start a new life without rara! (;

& i really-really mean it~ him? a piece of a memory of my life that i should erase~ yeaah i wish i can do that however it`s HARD wish me to SUCCES~ the more harder i tried to convinced myself that he`s not the one for me~ the more i want him back to hold me!

so i MOVE ON & ENJOY LIFE!

just want to recall back.

him a guy who approach me, try to make me fall until i had a crush with him & as i remember our relation was in the rush it`s suddenly happen after he called me~ day by day i love him more but sometimes my feeling was ups & down so cuz` of that i alwesh wana broke up with him~ & he always waited for me but not today!

you used to wait for me when i tried to say goodbye even it happen more than once =`c

but now i just can`t wait for you~ i can`t do it! yeaah many ppl tried to convinced me if you are my destiny you will return for me but however i can`t believed that~ uhhhh~ i just sick of waiting & the way he text me the day before? make me believe he will not return & he just want to take revenge over me!i wish that girl will make you happy! yeaaah i hope so! =`c

raraa; so i will FORGET you & try to NEVER TURN BACK!

i`m done until here sweethurt.

2009-05-21T11:27:00.000-07:00

crying alone.

2009-05-20T04:30:00.000-07:00

last morning i told him that i be waiting for him~is this the best way?will he return back?am i going to happy with this?

idk~but now?i`m not that strong =`c tearss keep falling down!

WAITING is painful, FORGETTING is painful but not KNOWING which one to do is the worst kind of SUFFERING~

i want to wait but waiting? the most stuff that i really-really hate! & i don`t want to disturb his relationship~ what if i`m in that girl situation? how i feel? uhhh~ plus i can`t stand if i remember he`s other girl`s boyfriend ;( bullshit! & both of them study in the same school!& while us? we are seldom to meet~am i going to success to make him return?

uhhh now i`m the one who struggle waiting for him~

should i.. pick to forget him? life goes on right? but.. raaraa alwesh used to wait for me when i said goodbye he can do it~ why not me? yeaaah i try to be in his shoes~ tapi the situation it`s not the same when i said my feeling is down i didn`t find anothers tapi ea? goshhhh~ should i forget him? whiness~

uhhh~ i don`t know!but the point is i want him baack! ouchieee =`c poor me!uhh if i said i want, i will try my best to have it no matter whaat!yeaah i will keep trying like what he did before & i will try to make it worth!

sweethurt,i DESERVED this!

2009-05-19T07:04:00.000-07:00

uhhh~

todaay`s the most hurt daay );

i wish the news that i heard is not true but today i found it by myself~ yeaah it is true~ he already have anothers~ & deaar so sorry i used your email without your permission~uhh i`m too stupid!there`s a lot of mistakes that i`ve done until it end up like this!i still remember when he told me his feeling was gone =`c even he try but it`s become less, less & less~ hmm there`s no meaning if we`re still together when you already felt that way plus you already have her! perhaps she will make you happy~

seriously this pain is more hurt than i ever felt before but i deserved it~

& yesterday i`m so sorry for rejected your call~ i jush angry cuz` i felt like you are trying to take revenge over what i`ve mess up in all the way of our relation that`s why~

but if you truly wana take revenge over me~ yeaah! you already did sweethurt ;(

i cried a lotss todaay & now i still wana cry! i not that stronger =`c anymore since i knew his heart is not for me anymore! uhh stupid me~if i know this gonna end up like this i won`t accept you from the beginning~ so i won`t make any carved in you hurt & this hurtful carved won`t never exist in my heart~ however, is already happen so jush let it go! this is just some lesson that i should learn~

goodbye sweethurt );

& i also do some crazy stuff & it`s a bit funny! i jush curios bah~ but it`s better cuz` it can reduce my headache~heyaa! sorry for being a disturber but i promish it will be the first & the last (;

anywaay ;; brokenhurt is the best diet ahaha (;

the ending.

2009-05-18T11:57:00.000-07:00

uhhh~

i can`t sleep =/

baabi~ it`s hurt me alots & i know i deserved all of this!there`s no one to blame accept me!

putraa te quiero! =`c

fuhhh~

hope tommorow when i woke up i be fine!i wana make new life without him~maybe it`s kinda hard! yeaah i try as hard as i can to forget him!

i just need some time~ time will make me forget about him but time that passes will make me miss him more~ uhh no matter what he will always have a place in my hart!i jush don`t wana cry any tear for him! that`s all~ i sick of it!

i never regret with what happened cuz` at same point everything is meant to be!
just stay strong & keep on smile-ing it`s going to be alright!

it`s suck & complicaated!

2009-05-16T08:16:00.000-07:00

what a bored night~

tonight i`m watching af alone~uhh feel so lonely~i wisssh aril win the first trophy!

hmm

& me?

a pampered girl who love to make alotss of trouble =/

even that person just want to give suggestion in a polite way~however my responsed was unpleasant~ziee i know you might read this~i just not in the good mood in that moment when you told me that news!it`s suck!it`s really does!i won`t forget you also said so~ so i hope you understand why i being rude~

so i herby asking an apology from you & pleshh don`t make any worst!

uhhh my life`s getting messy & messy & messy!

& putraa~

at the first when we united back everything is alright but now? idk~ to me he`s a bit change! maybe cuz` of i always wana break up~so now i`m the forgotten~ i deserved this right? yeaaah i think so~ maybe it`s KARMA!

still think what`s best for me & ezaa` told me to do what in my mind~ when i try to find the solution it`s stuck since he did not contact me so let it be this waay~uhh putraa te quiero~ =`c

i won`t cry right? yeaah ofcourse not just keep smiling!

hope tomorrow`s picnic at pantai muara will make me more relieved & forget this hurtful thingss~

praaaay for me! okaay? (;

2009-05-13T07:01:00.000-07:00

hello! (;

i`m busy~ to many things to do =/ so it`s hard for me to active in this blog.

i don`t lie! it`s TRUE!

hmm i jush done doing my business study & geography`s corrections then my next task is revise for my 3rd geography assessment~ i guess it`s the last one before parent`s meet so i wanaaa have a high mark for survive~

since my assessment is tougher i wanaa you guyss wish for me to have a better grade in every assessment that i had take~

anywaay~

err the point i want to post for todaay are this:

first,,

13th may 2009 is NADSS birthday (;

p/s:naadss,err cute kan gambar muu ar d; kuu ambil dari fs actually kuu kan ambil gambar yg macm emy tapi.. ko insaf dah waa d; ahaaahaa

guyss you know what?she`s still 16 years old~ i`m impressed with her cuz` in my age at 16 i still at form 4~ but she`s now study at pte as a lower 6~

i wish her to meet a perfect guy 1 day & also success in her carrier (;

secondly,,

ezaa` my best buddy!

she`s not in a good condition right now~ yesterday she went to hospital by ambulaans =/ uhhh i really-really hope it`s not worst than what i`ve got in my mind~

& she told me that she felt cold last night & her hart`s sick err or maybe hard to breath? i guess so~i`m not really sure =s

so you guyss out there will you accompany me to pray for her to get well soon~

pleshh don`t make me feel alone pray for her~

okaay? (;

Gladiolus Arcane Exotic Syzters?
..small finger UP,,it`s forever & ever babe!...

our QUOTES!

ghaa;;

``don`t like?

i don`t wana know!
i don`t wana care!``

get me?

``talk to the hand!`` said anaa~

while ezaa`?

``whatsoever!``

arghh! messy me~

2009-05-06T02:31:00.000-07:00

argghhh! my blog? such a mess! my chatbox is missing~ my mixipod is missing & my link is also missing~i will try to fix it later~ cuz this week i`m going to have assessment so i have no leisure time to do this stuff!

uhhhh~ i have no mood! seriously i felt uupppssseet! hmm i alwesh think negative! so pleshh dear prove me wrong~

uhhh i don`t want to get my hope up & watch them fall every time!

sorry to say i`m QUITE BUSY right now! so this blog are not that active anymore!

& pray me to have a better result okaay then daaa~ wanaa off!

"

yesterday was 30th.

2009-04-30T13:13:00.000-07:00

god help me!

i can`t close my eyes to sleep & this fucking damn headache is killing me! i already ate 2 pills of panadol but however it`s does not effect me~ & now i feel like i wana eat all of them! pttff this headache! i can`t stop thinking about him! i sick sick sick sick of it! keep asking myself am i regret to let him go? it`s a no right? but why my tears are keep falling? my puppy eyes won`t lie! uhhh~ zureen you`re right! now i`m the one who regret doing all of this! baabi~ it`s hurt me brabish! =) i fake a smile jush want to hide my pain~ so people surrounding me don`t really worry especially mummy~ uhhhh~ a lunatic me!

JUSH LET HIM GO OKAAY!

this is my decision so make it right!i`m jush fine~ jush need a time to cure ;) & PUTRAA? he deserved a girl who much better than me! HOPE SO! PUTRAA do a good take care of yourself! ilmnysm!

hm anyway i jush know that ezaa give me a mail! i feel relieved after read that~ wana know what she mail me? simple jaa~ i mish you ezaa! actually i wana call you tapi i think you already sleep right now!

so this the mailbox that i received from her ;)

Jush wana say HALLO. AND assalamu'alaikum !

MISS G.A.E Syzters'ss !

Huh ~

anyway,

study hard & study smart okk.

(; wish youu cautious in everyday, everywhere& in everything youu do.

Just keep in touch aite !

I'm gonna be having a lot to do&very busy.

I'll be apologizing for it.

Futhermore,

if i'm unconcern about yaa as if it happens tho.

Forgive me will yaa.

K take care then.

Farewell ~~

ezaa'ss here ~

WHAT SO EVER !

lalala~from what happen i learn that~

Never give up upon something if you still wana TRY!
Never wipe your tears if you still wana CRY!
Never settle with an answer if you still wana KNOW!
NEVER say you don`t love him..If you can`t let him go!

LIANAA 18th Birthday!

2009-04-28T04:37:00.000-07:00

todaay im extremely busy! i purposely wana make myself busy cuzz imishhimalotss~

& now i herby jush wana post this!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY LIANA

hopefully god will bless you in every steep of yourlife!

wishing you to have the happiness with family, the beloved boyfriend, a lotss of friend beside!

then i also pray for you to succes in life =)

err i mishh you too babe x(
i mish 5e`ss & the person that really miss is GAE`ss!
hope soon we have a time to hangout with!

remember~
bintangloveyouguys!(;

About Aril & MAN.U!

2009-04-25T21:24:00.000-07:00

hello!good afternoon~

arghh~last night i really-really upset when i heard ARIL is out! omg~ WTF is that? how could that be happen? PTFF~ whines!

with his pillow (;
i remember in this moment ARIL was ask by AC to picked this or the teddy bear but of course he picked this one right? x)

cool! i love this photo~
the shuffler ;)
anyway i jush know that he`s little brother of izwan pilus~

MAN.U vs tottenham x)

i satisfied with them last night! 5-2!x)

Take A Bow For MAN.U Players!

err last saturday i have time take a photo while waiting for daddy~

at lobby~ baatah waa kuu nunggu aar~ bored! alone g tuu =/

hmm at lower basement err i think this area call as exbhition hall~

p/s:i-m-p!

fridaay?! nothing special babe~

2009-04-24T04:05:00.000-07:00

fridaay? time to have a rest & feel like i want to absent from attend the school tommorow~ tireed banaar-banaar!today i suppose to start my tuition class but it`s cancel as my wish cuz i told daddy that i have a project to do so he agree =)

yesterday is my niece [the daughter of my 1st eldest sister] birthday!

so happy 5th birthday to her(;

this photo taken by her own.. wani so cute right? ofcourse x) today there`s no birthday party for her~ maybe on the next week

me & wani~ this photo is jush nice! x)

errr what`s next?

today?? nothing`s special happen jush a damn thing! i fight with wani`s mother which is my sister~ hmm forget it~ it`s a MESS~ so i don`t wana remember anything that hurts me!

anyway jay already give me the photo that she take from our research on tuesday~so i upload it here as what i said before~

candid from the back~ 1st shop that we interviewed! GUARDIAN shop~

ahaa ngambar sii-matin & saiful~ luckily i don`t turn around~

from-left:nads,saiful,me,mateen&kimbo at cd & dvd shop.

kimbo mateen~
sii-mateen jua dcandid nyaa tuu cuath urang lain ;p
& me? jush the half behind of me (;

hmm this is our last destination~ we have our own evening meal at ayamku~from right:nads,me,saiful,kimbo,mateen ciaan nda nampak then follow by piqah

i think that`s all for today x)

don`t think so~

jush wana say something about him~ i a bit mish him~ day by day my feeling for him hmm.. not too much~ actually i do love him but it`s better BE FRIEND? yeaah~ i think that`s the answer~ i don`t want to have any special relationship right now~ i so sure it`s better alone~ so i will not make any carved in my heart neither him~

lalala~ business study invitation x)

2009-04-22T05:29:00.000-07:00

i`m exhausted~ i jush woke up in a couple mins ago then now i`m here using my sister lappy without her permission cuz she`s sleeping right now~ listening to don`t forget - demi lovato song feel a bit calm~ laawaa lagunyaa (; & i lost appetite again i jush eat chocolate & chocolate & chocolate~

as what i post yesterday i wanaa have a great day for today? well~ it`s quite interesting~ i went to wahoo manggis which pick by my tutor cikgu roslin darat~ i feel suprised cuz she does`nt wearing a scarp like usual maybe it`s happen cuz of netball? i not really sure about it~ she look really pretty with her short hair~

on the way to there teacher roslin talking with my friend about boys over flower~ arghhh~ i wana see it~ uhhhh it cost 53$ waaa~ next month? i hope i can afford to buy it!hmm or i jush watch it trough you tube? later i wana try after doing my homeworks!

then about the competition?it`s win by de penatic grop which come from maktab duli~ they deserved it! among the 3 finalist this group are good in representing,their voice are clear,easy to understand & they also can answer many question given by the judges~ for de` penatic all the best for the next competition in hong kong x)

this is my business study mate who also invited!

saiful,a gurl idk her name =/ & follow by dayah~ there are sitting on my right side~

while this photo are the people who sit on my left side~

jiraah,mateen & hakim~

kimm~ gotchaa~ d;

after that we have our meal then we all are given a 2 geek pen drive each as a souvenir~ thanks HSBC x)

uhhh i have no time to say goodbye at him =/ cuz i must take my stuff at teacher roslin`s car then when i go upstair he`s already go home~ there are some photo that i take while waiting~

kimbo & saiful x)

& this 2 guy are not my classmate~ there are student of teacher esma err dayah classmate maybe~ i jush know the guy that stand on the right are man.u fans!

are they couple? what do you think? matching waa arr d; ahaa~ saiful.. are you shy? lol~

errr kamu2~

lasty,wish that Man.U will win today!

i addicted to this! whines..

2009-04-21T05:56:00.000-07:00

after arrive home i jush come here to published my new post!

hell yaah~ nowadayss i more addicted to blog-ing!

actually my mood are not really that good since i know that i have another tuition class at ... err... idk what it`s name is~ i jush know it`s close to the DQ & pizza hut restaurant~

uhh~
whines..
arghhh~
goshhh!
tuition?
seriously~
it`s BOTHER me alotss!

every week on tuesday & thursday i spent my time to have a tuition class about a hour & 15mins then now i`m going to have another tuition class start from this friday.. the sad thing is it take 2 hours & 30 minss babe!

first dad ask me either i agree or not? but at the end he`s kindaa pushy! so i take a long breath & said yes! daddy ily! dat`s why i agree~ my june exam are coming soon on 26th may so it does`nt take to long~ moreover,it`s for my own good! right?!

then after we go there our next destination is soon lee...shopping? ahaa maybe~ i got stomach-ache so we have our dinner at ayamku restaurant..

& this?

Mami & Abah~ the most person that i appreciate so much & i hope i never hurt their feeling~ mummy? she`s smile (; hope it`s beyond forever!

tommorow? i`ve been pick to have an invitation to final competion of HSBC young entrepreneur which held at wahoo manggis mall~ i want to have a great day tommorow cuz he also there & kimbo! pray for me okaay =)

20th April 09.. 3 month to go! x)

2009-04-20T02:12:00.000-07:00

hello x)

today? it`s a bit tired day!

last night i sleep late again i jush can`t close my eyes to sleep maybe cuz of he`s there chatting with me~ i mish him braabish~ he told me that he`s going to wait for me~ seriously i happy with that & i said that 1 day i promish i be back~

but... i feel like i fall in love for someone else err is it for a long time or ... idk! he`s so cool babe... p ntaaah aar~

forget it!

eyyy anyway last night man.u kalaah penalty uhh i have no mood tarus! x(

then in the next day i have a research at serusop area.. i have a fun! with them my grop =] there`s a lot a photo that we take~ but now i did not have the pictures maybe soon erm later on if i have a time i will try to upload here~

the only photo that i take on my own jush a picture of kimbo before we go there!

so this is him playing with his fone (;

& the next photo i think he try too fooling around ;p

p/s: to akim ahaaa biar ko famous sapa suruh ambil gambar curi saja x)

while this guess who?

the bus driver who can`t stop talking in all the time we go there & this is his video that i take using my fone~ idk it`s clear or not..

lastly,i already change my theme song i love it..

Dear God – Avenged Sevenfold

2009-04-19T06:31:00.000-07:00

i love & love to hear this song~

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

i love this song~ i want it to be my blog theme song but i have no time to change it cuz my sister wana use her lappy perhaps tommorow..

hmm anyway i realise that i have make some mistake in my previous blog i do a word of **playbook but it`s suppose to be a word of **playboy oppss~ sorry my bad! i am jush me! imperfect girl & FYI i ♥ being that way ;)

honestly my day are getting worst without him =(

2009-04-19T04:04:00.000-07:00

Dear blog ;)

it`s been a long time i did not write anything here~

there`s a lot of thing happen & the worst that i`ve done is~

I BROKE UP WITH PUTRAA x(

& it`s all happen cuz of myself i have no mutual feeling for him~ it`s ups & down! So i make decision to let go of him~ at the first i tried to make some troubles by online without leave him a miss call as usual but after two days i did that he jush patiently waiting for me to make a change~ he`s too kind while me? i alwesh ignore him... too demand.. really-really selfish... i never care about what he feels when my feeling are too down.. so i think it`s better if we`re jush a friend~ he deserve a girl who`s much better than me! moreover,i am jush suit to be a good friend not a good girlfriend~

i`m so sorry dear! i already try to be the one.. since i realise you are trying to do the best for me! but i jush can`t! it`s hard for me to trust a guy with what happen~ & many things i can`t stand anymore feel like our love is carving!

then after the first day being single.. i start to make it as a normal day like before~ i can smile laugh without him! & even cry! yeaah~ i can survive without him!

but it`s not goes perfectly as what i thought~ i have no mood to do my homeworke,loss my appetite i jush eat chocolate & i got headache after had a call with him on that night then in the morning i push myself to present in school~ purposely i wana make my schedule full!

my day are getting worst without him! when my geography 1st assessment fail! i jush got 6.5 out of 25! WTF is that~ feel like i am a lunatic! i already do my revision~ maybe it`s not enough!i wish he`s there to comfort me! x( then after i went home early at 12 cuz i`m not feeling so well i forget to eat a medicine this stuff is one of the thing that he alwesh remind me to do x(

at home?i saw she`s cried again~ uhhh when this thing will going to end? I sick with it~ yeaah i know it`s hard to trust that it`s jush nothing but he already try to fix his mistake~ sometimes time is the best cure! & ezaa`? she`s seems like angry with me! i jush can`t call her yesterday~ sorry buddy! Uhhh i never feel so down like this before~ uhhhh~ i need him!

hmmm & last morning i text him~ ahaa stupid waa~ in that time i was sitting on the living room alone! then i felt like there`s someone there~ & i plan to have a look but it`s cancel after I got goose bumps & further more i remember my mum story~ she told me that when my age at 2 i saw a ghost,i waved to her & tell mum she`s my friend!takut jua kuu tuu~ i told him! thank god he`s there!so i am not too afraid! so far we`re jush a good friend he ask me to msg him if online..

can`t denny~ ilovemishneedyousomuchhdear!

should i reunite back with him? it`s that the besh way? yeaah i mish him~ i damnly do! i mish his msg,his text when online,his voice,his smile,his warmth,his face,his cut hair,fone? absolutely i addicted with him!i`m not sure with my feeling it`s ups & down! i still thinking~ break up is my decision so i will make it right! jush be friend with him (; if i can survive! if everything is jush fine! if i can do everything alone! but what if i can`t? should i ask him to wait for me? isn`t that jush wasting his time? what if he wait then i meet with the new guy?

I HAVE NO IDEA!

13th MARCH my beloved DAD Birthday!

2009-03-13T07:20:00.001-07:00

today is a special day for me x) well~ it`s my beloved father`s birthday~ he`s now 54th years old~ he`s one of that person that i appreciate & i do care. I wish in my life time i never hurt his feeling. He alwesh give me inspire & encourage me to have a bright future.So this time i try my besh NO!! i give my besh to have a straight A`s. AMIN!

Unfortunely,it`s a bad day for my little brother. He broke up and this time he seriously fall in love with this girl but the problem come from his girlfriend`s mother. Poor him. He seems like look jush fine. Really? Hope it`s not a FAKE! I know him very well.

Jush Remember Things Happen For A REASON & Believe Allah Take Back Something That We Treasure When He Have A Better Thing To Give!

Maybe Allah want him too feel how hurt being treat like that. A playbook cannot bring any happiness. Yeaah~ i know he`s change. He`s not that fawk`n damn asshole PLAYBOY anymore but It`s a KARMA. What goes around turn around. Perhaps he can LEARN.

★-->sii-bintang★,,

My Star Shines x(

2009-03-09T09:37:00.000-07:00

I know I am damnly SELFISH I never care about his feeling. I alwesh do this. Jush keep silent when i mad with him. Even when he asked me that twice. Uhh why not yesterday he asked me that question. I will feel much better that today. As alwesh my answer ``ndapapa``. I know he don`t satisfied with my answer cuz` of my annoying text . Actually I did told him from my attitude. Yeaah! I am angry~ I angry cuz` of Saturday evening call. You ignore me on the phone! You make me wait! You picked your friend rather than me! Small matter? Maybe it`s a yes for you but not for me~ I jush want attention from you dear is that hard? I badly mish you! How could you do that!

GOSHH~ I LOVE YOU& I REALY MEAN THAT!

so pleshh don`t make it fade away again dear!

★-->sii-bintang★,,

★Me & My Sister★

2009-03-08T19:06:00.001-07:00

This Gurl Is My Closest Sister x)

my elle.♥♥hh.vee.ee =]

2009-03-08T06:11:00.001-07:00

Avril Lavigne - Things I'll Never Say Lyric

2009-03-08T05:25:00.000-07:00

Avril Lavigne - Things I'll Never Say Lyric

I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin to keep my cool
I know it shows

I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it, yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you, away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down, on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind
If it ain't comin out we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you, away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down, on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter I stumble like I've got nothing to say

Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it yeah

I guess i'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down, on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

These things I'll never say

...::i damnly ♥ this song::...

★-->sii-bintang★,,

1st Post Of Mine!

2009-03-08T05:22:00.001-07:00

Dear Blog,

today are holiday that`s why i have a time to post this. FYI this is my 1st time publishing a post & i still blur in everything.

let me write about my MYSELF

i`m Preety Clumsy★Neva Care Bout Others As Long I am Happy★Quite Shy★♥ Watchin` Star & Da Fallen Of Droplets`s Rain★A Lil Childish★She Won`t Stop Till She Get What She Want★Fooling Wif G.A.E`xo★Like To Disturb Ppl★Spend Time Wif WAN BFF★Alwesh Criticize Da Others★ ♥ To Sleep★Naturally Sensitive★Easily Cry★Talkative★Try To =] Even Everything Turn Wrong★Sleep Late★Pampered★Alwesh Whines★Selfishness★Daring★Try To Neva Regret Anymore★Friendly★Naughty★Naive★Easy Out Going★Ambitious,,★

SCHOOL?

i am a student at PTE Berakas but soon we are transfer to a new college at Meragang. it`s to far from my home so perhaps i can get allowance for that. lol. i aiming for straight A! i wana see mamiabah happy with my result. i hope it`s going to be granted in this 2 years. AMIN!

this picture are taken in the day of my orentation. macam pa kuu aar =s

err what else?kamuukamuu!this is my bestest~

left:Noraini & right:Azryna. we know each other since form 1 & until now. we are very close. close brabish. we alwesh spent everything together accept for boyss. we even once wana kill ourself together. stupid memory but sweet to remember. i thanks to them cuz` accept the worst of me =] WAN BFF!

& i also have a best buddy. we guys know each other since we study in the same class in form 4 & 5. we also created a team know as Gladiolus Arcane Exotic Syzters. ``Don`t You Ever Dare To Find A Mess With Us`` is our SLOGAN. But I changed it with a new one ``YOU SLAP ME? WE SURELY GONNA SLAP YOU BACK!``. They alwesh be there for me. Even at 3 o`clock i the morning. Ezaa wana wake up cuz` of my call. mishh yah buddy! both of us now are far apart! anaa work as assistant teacher at jigsaw, ezaa` study at MD & i at PTE. hmm i hope they alwesh remember me.

about my STATUS?

Not-single,totally taken by PUTRAA sii The Boyfriend & perhaps i`m going to be his wife. so far he`s jush fine in all situation & i am the 1 who alwesh ruined everything. alwesh said ``break up & break up``. he alwesh hold me in that time. i`m a person who easily to fall & forget. he understand that. selfish me! & now? afte i end up my holiday & back to school i feel like we are not that close anymore so i tried to make it better by make a call on saturday evening but ea macam ignorance raah kuu~ i feel disappointing with him! x(

i think dat`s all for today!

★-->sii-bintang★,,