stupidity.

i`ve done a stupid mistake

i supposed not to tell but..

i`m gonna make this blog PRIVATE

please,
apologize me.

CAUTERIZE - Shooting Stars

I know it's been a long time.
You've lost that look in your eye.
The one that told me everything was fine without a word.
But now we're standing face to face,
with nothing left to say but goodbye to yesterday.

I don't know if I can make it.
I don't know if I'm that strong.
I don't know where we went wrong but somehow it's over.
In my mind I see you clearly.
In my dreams I feel you near me.
I want to know, does this feeling go away?

Like shooting stars we shine and then we fade,
breaking the promises we made.
What about the promises?
What about the promises we made?
What about our plans for forever?
Did they scare you?
Did you need to get away?

You taught me many things.
Like how it feels to miss someone so bad
it feels like a part of you is missing.
I can tell you one thing.
Now that you have gone I never will forget you.
You left your mark.

When I have gone and you've moved on will you remember me?

p/s:
at last. . .
we promise to each other that
we`ll make it better than it ever was..

& yes,my BEST-FRIEND
is going to be BOY-FRIEND
after my GRADUATION.

aii-elle-waai,AzieQ

uhh~hate him.

screaming & shouting in the phone is our daily routine. . .

like it happen everyday =(
i just can`t stand it,seriously.

i know we`re loving each other
but still it`s not enough..

idk,why when we want to have a
SERIOUS-RELATIONSHIP
it turn out with something like this.

tatty = ineedhim

Neyo-Mad


Oh oh oh, oh oh oh...
Oh oh oh...

[Verse 1]

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Verse 2]

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out].
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Bridge]

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...


tyy,i`m so sorry..i did LIE.

WHATSOEVER!

i`m suffer cuz of my stomach.

cuz`

i had lost my appetite since this evening.

& that`s the reason why i feel so weak.

i online..

he text me..
* smile.

as usual we fight again..

i don`t understand him..

canaakan tuu aar.

i remember he asked me to be honest,
if there`s something i dislike about him,
but when i did so~

ea ucaap akuu tukang complaint!

who should be blame for that!

& it`s getting worst.

when he text this....


tatty:well~ i`m not your dream guy..
teddy:ohh.
teddy:good at least you knew it.
tatty:see?you never make me feel better
teddy:but do you make me feel that way when you even hard to trust me?
tatty:how many time should i tell you?....


blablablablabla.

i don`t hate him,
i just hate myself for being...
uhh i ruined everything.

WHATSOEVER!


today,i hang out with my siblings in the mall gdg`ss.

we watch this movie



i wish i gets a chance to rewrite my life back!

anyway,
zac efron is so damnly gorgeous in this movie.

i think i have crush with him?

naaah~
never think of it!



lee min ho,
is still my big fan!




have a look some rare photo of
lee min ho.

but still,
he look so HOT!

*kiraaai2!

yesterday was 20th.

actually,
last night i wana post this however there`s a lot of circumstances.

i hereby,

just wana share this..

yeaaay~
now my birthday is COUNT DOWN!



29 days to go.

so for this year my age are coming 18th.

getting older?

yeaah,it is! \\=


i disagree with him when he said this..

``age is an ugly thing, and it goes on getting worse``
* pfff~

i think..

``as we grow older we grow both more foolish and wiser at the same time``

kankan?

who`s agree with me legs up please? d;

i have 2 wish for this year.

1. shhh~ it`s my secret.

2. i want to be a cheerful & successful young lady.
* huge smile.


mamiabah = my inspiration,


my eldest siblings = my challenge,

wan bff & gae`ss = my motivation,


& tatty = my rainbow.

pfff~kusuut.

it`s already at 3:35am.

but i can`t close my eyes to sleep.

whiineeeess~

tatty,
i`m into you.

but

idk until when my feeling will stay
you should know better.

that`s why i don`t wana give any hope.

& yeah~

hopefully,in this 2 years will make any different between us.

if yes,i will think of it ;D

p/s:i`mgoingtomissyou,myguardianangel!

STRONG-HEARTED as tatty said.

i`m a young lady who should enjoy life & be happy not being moody in every mins of the day.

arghh!


˙ɯıɥ ɟo oƃ ʇǝן oʇ ʇsǝpɹɐɥ ʎɯ ʇɐ ƃuıʎɹʇ ǝɹǝɥ ɯ,ı sı ʇɔɐɟ ǝɥʇ ʇnq puıɯ ʎɯ uı sʎɐʍןɐ s,ʇı ,,¡ɹǝʌǝɹoɟɯıɥǝʌoןı,,

ENOUGH is ENOUGH.

& this?

dedicated for the person who know me especially you..

dear tatty,
my guardian angel.

it's amazing when STRANGERS become FRIENDS,

but its sad when FRIENDS become STRANGERS.

Soon you are going to abroad again & i`m the last 1 who knew it.
* pfff~ whines.

THANKS for that!

I just want to let you know.

I never want to lose u as a friend!


I
I
I
I
I
V

I met u as a STRANGER.

Now i have u as a FRIENDS.

I hope we meet in our next walk of life where friendship never ends.


♥I♥may♥not♥be♥the♥

most♥important♥person♥

in♥your♥LiFE♥

I♥just♥hope♥that♥

when♥you♥hear♥

my♥name
♥you
♥smile♥&♥say


That's My Friend..

1st day of holiday.

hmm~ whines!

actually today i feel so emo!

i think it`s been a week i don`t remember him but todaay..
i heard something bad about him,it`s really-really bad!
i just don`t want to share that story within my siblings.

then GAE`ss? uhh ezaa`
nowadays she difficult to get online.

while tatty~
i`m so sorry for being rude,
i don`t want to mentioned his name as your wish
& thanks for your warmth cheers.
but still..i don`t say yes.

to make me forget that thing i try to make myself busy by changing my blog skin.

it have a new look now.

see? there`s a lots of pink fallen star. suka kuu!
* big smile!

todaay it`s 14 june `09,
my very truly closest sister birthday!










she`s one of important in my life ;D


cuz she is my witness,who sees me at my worst & best! she is my partner in crime,my best companion, someone who knows when i fake a smile,a listener,conspirator,a counselor,a sharer of delights & sorrows too. she is also my teacher,she teach me about fairness,cooperation,kindness & caring.

she`s almost my twin!



have a blaast dear even mamiabah is not here =c

honestly, i feel envy with her.
she look really happy with her day ;D

& i wonder am i going to be happy during my birthday party?
idk yet, i hope on that day i will happy in the fullest.

next,i`m going to tell about our last day of school.

12th june `09.

it`s cross-country event for PTE M.

the result:

the 1st champion: indera mahkota.
the 2nd champion: indera wijaya.

the 3rd champion: indera putra.
the 4th champion: indera pahlawan.

i satisfied with this cuz indera mahkota is still the winner!
HWAAITI!

our photo is published in borneo buletin in today date err i think it`s in the 1st page or the last 1, just have a look.

this is the reason why my leg is injured now.
jalan pun macam apaa \\=

it`s WORTH plaang!
cuz i got medal, as the 11th.
* thumps up!





but i start to feel KCARIAN kan mami D=
paa~ nda urang kan dikusut & diinggul.
my fone is BROKEN DOWN!

ohh pampered me! \\=