yesterday was 30th.

god help me!

i can`t close my eyes to sleep & this fucking damn headache is killing me! i already ate 2 pills of panadol but however it`s does not effect me~ & now i feel like i wana eat all of them! pttff this headache! i can`t stop thinking about him! i sick sick sick sick of it! keep asking myself am i regret to let him go? it`s a no right? but why my tears are keep falling? my puppy eyes won`t lie! uhhh~ zureen you`re right! now i`m the one who regret doing all of this! baabi~ it`s hurt me brabish! =) i fake a smile jush want to hide my pain~ so people surrounding me don`t really worry especially mummy~ uhhhh~ a lunatic me!

JUSH LET HIM GO OKAAY!

this is my decision so make it right!i`m jush fine~ jush need a time to cure ;) & PUTRAA? he deserved a girl who much better than me! HOPE SO! PUTRAA do a good take care of yourself! ilmnysm!


hm anyway i jush know that ezaa give me a mail! i feel relieved after read that~ wana know what she mail me? simple jaa~ i mish you ezaa! actually i wana call you tapi i think you already sleep right now!

so this the mailbox that i received from her ;)

Jush wana say HALLO. AND assalamu'alaikum !

MISS G.A.E Syzters'ss !

Huh ~

anyway,

study hard & study smart okk.

(; wish youu cautious in everyday, everywhere& in everything youu do.



Just keep in touch aite !



I'm gonna be having a lot to do&very busy.

I'll be apologizing for it.

Futhermore,

if i'm unconcern about yaa as if it happens tho.

Forgive me will yaa.



K take care then.

Farewell ~~



ezaa'ss here ~

WHAT SO EVER !


lalala~from what happen i learn that~

Never give up upon something if you still wana TRY!
Never wipe your tears if you still wana CRY!
Never settle with an answer if you still wana KNOW!
NEVER say you don`t love him..If you can`t let him go!

LIANAA 18th Birthday!

todaay im extremely busy! i purposely wana make myself busy cuzz imishhimalotss~

& now i herby jush wana post this!



HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY LIANA

hopefully god will bless you in every steep of yourlife!

wishing you to have the happiness with family, the beloved boyfriend, a lotss of friend beside!

then i also pray for you to succes in life =)

err i mishh you too babe x(
i mish 5e`ss & the person that really miss is GAE`ss!
hope soon we have a time to hangout with!

remember~
bintangloveyouguys!(;

About Aril & MAN.U!

hello!good afternoon~

arghh~last night i really-really upset when i heard ARIL is out! omg~ WTF is that? how could that be happen? PTFF~ whines!







with his pillow (;
i remember in this moment ARIL was ask by AC to picked this or the teddy bear but of course he picked this one right? x)







cool! i love this photo~
the shuffler ;)
anyway i jush know that he`s little brother of izwan pilus~







MAN.U vs tottenham x)

i satisfied with them last night! 5-2!x)

Take A Bow For MAN.U Players!


err last saturday i have time take a photo while waiting for daddy~



at lobby~ baatah waa kuu nunggu aar~ bored! alone g tuu =/









hmm at lower basement err i think this area call as exbhition hall~



p/s:i-m-p!

fridaay?! nothing special babe~

fridaay? time to have a rest & feel like i want to absent from attend the school tommorow~ tireed banaar-banaar!today i suppose to start my tuition class but it`s cancel as my wish cuz i told daddy that i have a project to do so he agree =)

yesterday is my niece [the daughter of my 1st eldest sister] birthday!

so happy 5th birthday to her(;



this photo taken by her own.. wani so cute right? ofcourse x) today there`s no birthday party for her~ maybe on the next week







me & wani~ this photo is jush nice! x)


errr what`s next?

today?? nothing`s special happen jush a damn thing! i fight with wani`s mother which is my sister~ hmm forget it~ it`s a MESS~ so i don`t wana remember anything that hurts me!

anyway jay already give me the photo that she take from our research on tuesday~so i upload it here as what i said before~





candid from the back~ 1st shop that we interviewed! GUARDIAN shop~






ahaa ngambar sii-matin & saiful~ luckily i don`t turn around~




from-left:nads,saiful,me,mateen&kimbo at cd & dvd shop.



kimbo mateen~
sii-mateen jua dcandid nyaa tuu cuath urang lain ;p
& me? jush the half behind of me (;




hmm this is our last destination~ we have our own evening meal at ayamku~from right:nads,me,saiful,kimbo,mateen ciaan nda nampak then follow by piqah

i think that`s all for today x)

don`t think so~

jush wana say something about him~ i a bit mish him~ day by day my feeling for him hmm.. not too much~ actually i do love him but it`s better BE FRIEND? yeaah~ i think that`s the answer~ i don`t want to have any special relationship right now~ i so sure it`s better alone~ so i will not make any carved in my heart neither him~

lalala~ business study invitation x)

i`m exhausted~ i jush woke up in a couple mins ago then now i`m here using my sister lappy without her permission cuz she`s sleeping right now~ listening to don`t forget - demi lovato song feel a bit calm~ laawaa lagunyaa (; & i lost appetite again i jush eat chocolate & chocolate & chocolate~

as what i post yesterday i wanaa have a great day for today? well~ it`s quite interesting~ i went to wahoo manggis which pick by my tutor cikgu roslin darat~ i feel suprised cuz she does`nt wearing a scarp like usual maybe it`s happen cuz of netball? i not really sure about it~ she look really pretty with her short hair~

on the way to there teacher roslin talking with my friend about boys over flower~ arghhh~ i wana see it~ uhhhh it cost 53$ waaa~ next month? i hope i can afford to buy it!hmm or i jush watch it trough you tube? later i wana try after doing my homeworks!

then about the competition?it`s win by de penatic grop which come from maktab duli~ they deserved it! among the 3 finalist this group are good in representing,their voice are clear,easy to understand & they also can answer many question given by the judges~ for de` penatic all the best for the next competition in hong kong x)



this is my business study mate who also invited!

saiful,a gurl idk her name =/ & follow by dayah~ there are sitting on my right side~





while this photo are the people who sit on my left side~

jiraah,mateen & hakim~









kimm~ gotchaa~ d;





after that we have our meal then we all are given a 2 geek pen drive each as a souvenir~ thanks HSBC x)

uhhh i have no time to say goodbye at him =/ cuz i must take my stuff at teacher roslin`s car then when i go upstair he`s already go home~ there are some photo that i take while waiting~



kimbo & saiful x)


& this 2 guy are not my classmate~ there are student of teacher esma err dayah classmate maybe~ i jush know the guy that stand on the right are man.u fans!





are they couple? what do you think? matching waa arr d; ahaa~ saiful.. are you shy? lol~



errr kamu2~

lasty,wish that Man.U will win today!

i addicted to this! whines..

after arrive home i jush come here to published my new post!

hell yaah~ nowadayss i more addicted to blog-ing!

actually my mood are not really that good since i know that i have another tuition class at ... err... idk what it`s name is~ i jush know it`s close to the DQ & pizza hut restaurant~


uhh~
whines..
arghhh~
goshhh!
tuition?
seriously~
it`s BOTHER me alotss!

every week on tuesday & thursday i spent my time to have a tuition class about a hour & 15mins then now i`m going to have another tuition class start from this friday.. the sad thing is it take 2 hours & 30 minss babe!

first dad ask me either i agree or not? but at the end he`s kindaa pushy! so i take a long breath & said yes! daddy ily! dat`s why i agree~ my june exam are coming soon on 26th may so it does`nt take to long~ moreover,it`s for my own good! right?!

then after we go there our next destination is soon lee...shopping? ahaa maybe~ i got stomach-ache so we have our dinner at ayamku restaurant..

& this?



Mami & Abah~ the most person that i appreciate so much & i hope i never hurt their feeling~ mummy? she`s smile (; hope it`s beyond forever!

tommorow? i`ve been pick to have an invitation to final competion of HSBC young entrepreneur which held at wahoo manggis mall~ i want to have a great day tommorow cuz he also there & kimbo! pray for me okaay =)

20th April 09.. 3 month to go! x)

hello x)

today? it`s a bit tired day!

last night i sleep late again i jush can`t close my eyes to sleep maybe cuz of he`s there chatting with me~ i mish him braabish~ he told me that he`s going to wait for me~ seriously i happy with that & i said that 1 day i promish i be back~

but... i feel like i fall in love for someone else err is it for a long time or ... idk! he`s so cool babe... p ntaaah aar~

forget it!

eyyy anyway last night man.u kalaah penalty uhh i have no mood tarus! x(

then in the next day i have a research at serusop area.. i have a fun! with them my grop =] there`s a lot a photo that we take~ but now i did not have the pictures maybe soon erm later on if i have a time i will try to upload here~

the only photo that i take on my own jush a picture of kimbo before we go there!



so this is him playing with his fone (;

& the next photo i think he try too fooling around ;p




p/s: to akim ahaaa biar ko famous sapa suruh ambil gambar curi saja x)












while this guess who?



the bus driver who can`t stop talking in all the time we go there & this is his video that i take using my fone~ idk it`s clear or not..


lastly,i already change my theme song i love it..

Dear God – Avenged Sevenfold

i love & love to hear this song~

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again oh no
Once again


i love this song~ i want it to be my blog theme song but i have no time to change it cuz my sister wana use her lappy perhaps tommorow..

hmm anyway i realise that i have make some mistake in my previous blog i do a word of **playbook but it`s suppose to be a word of **playboy oppss~ sorry my bad! i am jush me! imperfect girl & FYI i ♥ being that way ;)

honestly my day are getting worst without him =(

Dear blog ;)

it`s been a long time i did not write anything here~

there`s a lot of thing happen & the worst that i`ve done is~

I BROKE UP WITH PUTRAA x(

& it`s all happen cuz of myself i have no mutual feeling for him~ it`s ups & down! So i make decision to let go of him~ at the first i tried to make some troubles by online without leave him a miss call as usual but after two days i did that he jush patiently waiting for me to make a change~ he`s too kind while me? i alwesh ignore him... too demand.. really-really selfish... i never care about what he feels when my feeling are too down.. so i think it`s better if we`re jush a friend~ he deserve a girl who`s much better than me! moreover,i am jush suit to be a good friend not a good girlfriend~

i`m so sorry dear! i already try to be the one.. since i realise you are trying to do the best for me! but i jush can`t! it`s hard for me to trust a guy with what happen~ & many things i can`t stand anymore feel like our love is carving!

then after the first day being single.. i start to make it as a normal day like before~ i can smile laugh without him! & even cry! yeaah~ i can survive without him!

but it`s not goes perfectly as what i thought~ i have no mood to do my homeworke,loss my appetite i jush eat chocolate & i got headache after had a call with him on that night then in the morning i push myself to present in school~ purposely i wana make my schedule full!

my day are getting worst without him! when my geography 1st assessment fail! i jush got 6.5 out of 25! WTF is that~ feel like i am a lunatic! i already do my revision~ maybe it`s not enough!i wish he`s there to comfort me! x( then after i went home early at 12 cuz i`m not feeling so well i forget to eat a medicine this stuff is one of the thing that he alwesh remind me to do x(

at home?i saw she`s cried again~ uhhh when this thing will going to end? I sick with it~ yeaah i know it`s hard to trust that it`s jush nothing but he already try to fix his mistake~ sometimes time is the best cure! & ezaa`? she`s seems like angry with me! i jush can`t call her yesterday~ sorry buddy! Uhhh i never feel so down like this before~ uhhhh~ i need him!

hmmm & last morning i text him~ ahaa stupid waa~ in that time i was sitting on the living room alone! then i felt like there`s someone there~ & i plan to have a look but it`s cancel after I got goose bumps & further more i remember my mum story~ she told me that when my age at 2 i saw a ghost,i waved to her & tell mum she`s my friend!takut jua kuu tuu~ i told him! thank god he`s there!so i am not too afraid! so far we`re jush a good friend he ask me to msg him if online..

can`t denny~ ilovemishneedyousomuchhdear!

should i reunite back with him? it`s that the besh way? yeaah i mish him~ i damnly do! i mish his msg,his text when online,his voice,his smile,his warmth,his face,his cut hair,fone? absolutely i addicted with him!i`m not sure with my feeling it`s ups & down! i still thinking~ break up is my decision so i will make it right! jush be friend with him (; if i can survive! if everything is jush fine! if i can do everything alone! but what if i can`t? should i ask him to wait for me? isn`t that jush wasting his time? what if he wait then i meet with the new guy?

I HAVE NO IDEA!