i`m off.

good morning!

yaaw,
i wake up early today around 5 in the morning.

cuz`
last nite i sleep early after
had a short conversation with azieq

tatty, you slowly rip my heart out with your words. it`s hurt me badly like a knife. *arigato. i'm sick and tired of your attitude. i'm feeling like I don't know who you are. you tell me that you <3 me, then you cut me down. & here's to you and your temper yes, I remember what you said last night. i know that you see what you're doing to me tell me, why? well,i get so confused and frustrated with what have you done. just forget what i'm trying to say. counted all the scars that you made in my heart, i`m off with this. off with the repeating history & i`m getting sick of a promises. it`s just made to be broken. this time you are not sorry, b'cuz i know, even you are in madness but you really meant it dear.

single = better

anyway,
last monday,i went off to salon with kalina.
i just want to have a new look.

so i think i just cut half of it?
yeaaah~ i think so.


but it`s still long.
cuz` mummy won`t let me..
i perfectly sure.

quizz.

i just woke up around 12 in midnight.

then suddenly my secondary friend invite me to have a chat room.

they are my mate when i was studied in form 1 until 3 at smsab.



it`s been a long time,
i had lost contact with them
accept 5e`ss & for them who study the same school with me in PTE M.

them,
remind me back of my old school & raaraa.

err him?
i`m done with wishing he`s still here with me.

JUST FORGET IT.

anyway,
here some quiz that i answer from facebook.

WHAT KIND OF LOVER?
You are a Shy Lover.
You are one shy kid. Relationships are hard to find, but once you find one, you are sweet and happy. Watch out! don't become desperate. Your separation from humanity might lead to you clinging to someone too tightly. Loosen up and relax. If they love you, they wont leave you, and you are VERY lovable. Also, don't be afraid to tell your love how you feel!

WHY YOU ARE STILL SINGLE?
Too Picky.
Too Picky: Don't be too picky or too quick to judge, give them a chance!


WHAT`S UR GREATEST FEAR?
Fear of Love.
Couples only get on your nerves, for your greatest fear is love. You've probably been in many relationships in the past that failed miserably, or maybe you've never been in a relationship, which has left you bitter. It's gotten to a point where you hate the thought of love, but you probably would feel differently if you had someone all to yourself...

You fear never finding your one and only.

Element: Fire
Sacred animal: Dragon

WHO WILL YOU END UP WITH?
Your Enemy!
The one person that you find is the most annoying human on the planet. They are the opposite gender of you, and you were destinied to be with them.


WHAT KIND OF BOY SHOULD YOU BE WITH?
Bestfriend Boy.
You need a bestfriend boy. It sounds very boring, but it's really not. This could turn into the most passionate relationship ever! You need someone that is just fun to be around, without all the mushy gushy stuff all the time. You want to be able to be yourself around a guy, and just hangout like you do with your friends. You also probably value being able to have a conversation that has to do with more than how much you "miss" or "love" eachother. If you have a bestfriend that's a guy, don't be afraid to DATE HIM! He could turn out to be the perfect guy for you. And if you don't have a guy bestfriend already, then find one! If you meet a guy you might be interested in, see if you can just be friends before you climb into the relationship.

WHAT KIND OF GIRL ARE YOU?
The Innocent one.
The quiet, outspoken one. Often the peace keeper. You tend to be the one that people turn to for help. To guys you're the cute one, to girls you're the best friend.

WHAT KIND OF GIRL ARE YOU?
Sweet..

WHAT DO PEOPLE REMEMBER YOU FOR?
Your Attitude..

ARE YOU CHILDISH?
I'm 69% childish!..


yeaaay!
holiday is being extended for a week,

but don`t too happy.
cuz` out there 25 people in brunei who`s suffer from swine flu.

hope soon they can find the cure for this disease.

25th June 09 - 5e`ss gather

on that day i had alots of fun with them.

-zureen,nads,miera,yanti,fariza,mas,naziratul,
kimbo,maiyo,mingo,nabil,ruzdy,wadud,azrie,
iskandar,hadi & syahmi.

for those who`s absent,i miss you guyss.

especially GAE`ss.


- my bestest buddies ; ezaa` & anaa~

anaa~
can`t come cuz of her recruit.

while ezaa`
her parent`s won`t let her go.


& also



- teacher pauline,it`s too difficult for us to reach her \\=

& 5E`ss,
don`t forget on this 5th July 09,
we`re going to have our gather again at mall gdg.

perhaps,all of us can come.

since my fone are still in the same situation,
so i did`nt take a picture of that day.

but no worries,
cuz some of my friends did.

here`s some photo taken by kimbo.

my best mate.
* smile.


- me with him. *kuu nada tau ea ambil gambar*


- us. * big smile.


- chilling.


- & bill,bhapa ko? =.= CUTE ko aar.


- dudez of 5[E]xtereme`ss in SMSAB`08


- that`s me. *GAAUK,eyy mliaat urang BBQ bah tuu*


- trying to check is`t okay if we use this way.

- that`s me again.



- at beach, from right: me,yanti & mieraa.

5e`ss 08,
THANKS for the SWEET memory.

there`s alot of picture taken by miera,
but now i`m waiting for her response tapi nadaa..

tadi ku text ea & ea cakap esuk ea UPLOAD.
& soon if i get the photoss i will try to upload it here.

bytheway,
i really hope this holiday is being exteneded for a week!
AMIN!AMIN!AMIN!

if yes,I LOVE IT!

tapi i read from brudiret,macam sure dah.

have a check;
http://www.brudirect.com/index.php/200906271504/First-Stories/public-urge-delay-school-reopening.html

tatty = ineedhim

Neyo-Mad


Oh oh oh, oh oh oh...
Oh oh oh...

[Verse 1]

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Verse 2]

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out].
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Bridge]

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...


tyy,i`m so sorry..i did LIE.

WHATSOEVER!

i`m suffer cuz of my stomach.

cuz`

i had lost my appetite since this evening.

& that`s the reason why i feel so weak.

i online..

he text me..
* smile.

as usual we fight again..

i don`t understand him..

canaakan tuu aar.

i remember he asked me to be honest,
if there`s something i dislike about him,
but when i did so~

ea ucaap akuu tukang complaint!

who should be blame for that!

& it`s getting worst.

when he text this....


tatty:well~ i`m not your dream guy..
teddy:ohh.
teddy:good at least you knew it.
tatty:see?you never make me feel better
teddy:but do you make me feel that way when you even hard to trust me?
tatty:how many time should i tell you?....


blablablablabla.

i don`t hate him,
i just hate myself for being...
uhh i ruined everything.

WHATSOEVER!


today,i hang out with my siblings in the mall gdg`ss.

we watch this movie



i wish i gets a chance to rewrite my life back!

anyway,
zac efron is so damnly gorgeous in this movie.

i think i have crush with him?

naaah~
never think of it!



lee min ho,
is still my big fan!




have a look some rare photo of
lee min ho.

but still,
he look so HOT!

*kiraaai2!

hate this.

damn it!

mummy~
i can`t sleep.

just bcuz of that NIGHTMARE!

it`s scared me a lots.
* fallen tears.



ohh please,
this is worthless.

just GO AWAY from my life!

yesterday was 20th.

actually,
last night i wana post this however there`s a lot of circumstances.

i hereby,

just wana share this..

yeaaay~
now my birthday is COUNT DOWN!



29 days to go.

so for this year my age are coming 18th.

getting older?

yeaah,it is! \\=


i disagree with him when he said this..

``age is an ugly thing, and it goes on getting worse``
* pfff~

i think..

``as we grow older we grow both more foolish and wiser at the same time``

kankan?

who`s agree with me legs up please? d;

i have 2 wish for this year.

1. shhh~ it`s my secret.

2. i want to be a cheerful & successful young lady.
* huge smile.


mamiabah = my inspiration,


my eldest siblings = my challenge,

wan bff & gae`ss = my motivation,


& tatty = my rainbow.

pfff~kusuut.

it`s already at 3:35am.

but i can`t close my eyes to sleep.

whiineeeess~

tatty,
i`m into you.

but

idk until when my feeling will stay
you should know better.

that`s why i don`t wana give any hope.

& yeah~

hopefully,in this 2 years will make any different between us.

if yes,i will think of it ;D

p/s:i`mgoingtomissyou,myguardianangel!

STRONG-HEARTED as tatty said.

i`m a young lady who should enjoy life & be happy not being moody in every mins of the day.

arghh!


˙ɯıɥ ɟo oƃ ʇǝן oʇ ʇsǝpɹɐɥ ʎɯ ʇɐ ƃuıʎɹʇ ǝɹǝɥ ɯ,ı sı ʇɔɐɟ ǝɥʇ ʇnq puıɯ ʎɯ uı sʎɐʍןɐ s,ʇı ,,¡ɹǝʌǝɹoɟɯıɥǝʌoןı,,

ENOUGH is ENOUGH.

& this?

dedicated for the person who know me especially you..

dear tatty,
my guardian angel.

it's amazing when STRANGERS become FRIENDS,

but its sad when FRIENDS become STRANGERS.

Soon you are going to abroad again & i`m the last 1 who knew it.
* pfff~ whines.

THANKS for that!

I just want to let you know.

I never want to lose u as a friend!


I
I
I
I
I
V

I met u as a STRANGER.

Now i have u as a FRIENDS.

I hope we meet in our next walk of life where friendship never ends.


♥I♥may♥not♥be♥the♥

most♥important♥person♥

in♥your♥LiFE♥

I♥just♥hope♥that♥

when♥you♥hear♥

my♥name
♥you
♥smile♥&♥say


That's My Friend..