my cindrella guy?

you know what todaaay i saw my exx?Hue?we`re together when i was studied in elementary school.Its dat wat we kol a love monkey?uhh~yeaah sort of.R U mad?nope,i`m a look the one?no..then why u ask?Ok,I think U R mad..a bit?oh maybe cuz of my text..that`s why..U owez give me dis reason even im right..lol..don`t act like you know me well..See?I`m sory 4 wat I`ve done..I envied weneva U mentioned bout a guy esp he sum1 U used 2 love..but it`s happen a years ago..U dun understand..what?Can U control ur jeoulosy?hm..no..ohh..opss should we change the topic?Definitely yes,Ive several ques 2 ask..hmm?Do U wan 2 ans/not? what`s the ques?R U agree?go ahead..Wats da type of guy dat U find interesting 2 B ur partner life? why u ask me in the sudden? it`s weird,actually.Juz wan 2 know..idk what the answer..BORIIING..aha okaay okaay.. i want to find a guy who really love me through my worst & in even one day i have wrinkles on my face he stil there for me.Sweeet..Its dat ol?how bout da attitude?i don`t really care about that..Rely how about if he smoke?U said ur hart will have difficulty wit dat..it`s depends.Meaning?as i said before,its okay. if he do love me.. will he smoke infront of me? don`t be stupid..I get it now..i think it`s enough,now~it`s my turn..Hm I`m not done yet..I dun satisfied with ur ans..I know U R too demanding..lol so what else do want to ask?How bout da education?dun U so picky wit dat?err it will be better if he have higher education than me..Like me? ahaa yeaah..Den wat else? idk.What F da guy dat truly luv U is a non-muslim?no..it`s imposible.It can be happen..that`s a shit.. it will bring a big problem for me.y?cuz i seldom to done what should be done by a muslim..then how can i teach him to be a muslim?But if he wants 2 convert a muslim 4 U?hm i CONFUSE..stop asking about this..no way..idon`twant.So U dislike non-muslim?stop pushing me.I wan 2 know.seriously,i don`t have the answer.U prefer muslim?EXACTLY,i want him to guide me..it`s the duty for every husband in this world right?You remind me about the cindrella guy in U dream.ohh-- just forget about that.y?it`s just a dream..a fantasy..not for real...If I wan 2 B him?duhhh~annoying..don`t kidding me that way,okay?Im serious..really?Dun pretend U neva know wat i feel..it`s not like that..U owez make fun of me..NEEVEER.U R..you always jump to the conclusion.Lyk u b4..are you trying to take revenge on me?Don`t get me wrong,I juZ WAN 2 remind U ol ppl do dat.WHATSOEVER..i`m sleepy..wana off to bed..Ok.. Gudbye & Gudnyt.same goes to you..Do dream about me 2 B ur cindrealla guy. lalala~ ZzZ



Assalamualaikum,Cinta.

trust me (:

seriously,i want to post something that involved about today..

felt so fucking damn tired..
buuuut.. it`s okaaaay..

yesterday i`m sleepless..
then after school i went off
to the mall with my ps`s girlss
during evening..



"seven voices,
seven life,
seven different stories,
seven loves

but...

only one chemistry star we could share"

credit to ayun.



while,
at night i`m out with
mamiabah,mamad,iffah,ifaat&wani..
we`re having our lunch together..

opsss~
NOOO--actually it`s a dinner time..

& ted..
black suit with you..
i`m not trying to convince you
about something that i disagree..

but it`s real..
i mean it`s truly from the
bottom of my heart..

ohh converse yg da star right?
lols..

well,
that`a all for tonight..

i feel so exhausted =/
wana have a looooong
rest,please?

unfortunate =/

pfffff~

yesterday i spent my time
watched liverpool vs manchester united..

which is very very dissapointed..
i hate torres & ngog *scream*





both of them score..
while,man.u lost with 2-0..

& thank god..
i don`t join the chocolatess betting..
if yes,i wil lose ten bucks..

what even worse when..
i receive 6 messages from
liverpool fansss...

FYI,
i will not keep that messages..
so yeaah of course..
i delete all of them..

banciiiikuuu!
then time online pun daa..
urang mtxt..

diskulaaah pun ada ne waaa..
shiiit ehh..

what-a-bad-daaaay!


nevermind..



man.u is still the best!

arghh,da kirai yo! ;(

i can`t sleep again =/

i have no idea why..

currently listening to
hidup tak selamnya indah
by dygta..

i do this when feeling
moody or lost someone?
yeaah,that`s correct.

actually,
this song is deeply
HURTING me..

i know..
i`ve been rude to you..
but you first..

as you know i just can`t let go..
i neeeed more time,please?

well..
you never understand..

you angry is always over the top..

we are just like CAT & DOG
which i really hate!

ted,i hate you..
can you just stay,
wipe this tears
& be the one for me?

uhhhhhh...
i hope you are just
my ANOTHER CRUSH!
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boy,you stole my heart,
give me back!!

foolish me again.

i always want to know EVERYTHING
& it`s drive me insaaane!

i know this thing will happen
but i don`t expect time ne!

babiii!this pain is killing me!

why giving hope?
when you did`nt really meant it..

maybe it`s all my fault..
too naive until easily to
trust & get fool..

can you please stop?
i`ve been hurt enough..

pfffff~
tomorrow i`m having my
exam for english o`level..

hoping that i can do it
even my heart`s breaking!

pffff~

now i`m texting..
with 1 of my bestfriend..

noraini

like it`s been a month
& maybe more we did`nt
contact each other..

cuz

she`s seem like
busy with her life..

then just now she text me..

i miss her braabish..
we share our story..

she said
``rinduu time tane
liat wayang betiga ah..``

me too =/

maybee soooon!

i want to watch NEW MOOON!

she`s now having her exam..

& raa also..
kinda miss him too =/

do the best,yeaaaah?

hopefully you guys will
get higher marks.

anywaay,
i get annoyed with this guy..

he`s totally annoying,
too pushy & too craaazy..

LOL.

seriously,
i really meant that.

sometimes
he scared me a lot.

whatthehell..

stop disturbing my life!!

dude, it`s a GAE`ss gathering.

yesterdaay,
we hang out again.

i really enjoy that!

there`s a lot of photo taken by us..

tapiiii
anaa inda sempat bagi ku smua..

so just this
that i can publish..

it`s just me
& it`s everywhere(:













& this is us.






i am OUUUUT!
soon i`m going to upload lagi..

p/s:
if you want to hold me..
then tell me that
i`ll never set free..

messed up.

yes,
i am stubborn
& hard to handle.

i love rebellion
& freedom.

might be soo sarcastic
to whom i detest the most.

too sensitive
until easily to get hurt.

none can be trust
until i keep my own secret.

mistakes,
is my daily routine.

stupidity,
can control me.

hatred,
fulfill in my heart.

i hate when they keep fighting..

i hate when they keep screaming..

i hate when they keep ignoring..

i hate when they keep silent..

i really do!



so stop it,please!
it`s hurts me!

i am still..

who are you now?
are you still the same?
or did you change somehow?
what do you do?

at this very moment
when i think of you

& when i`m looking back
how we were young and stupid
do you remember that?

no matter how i fight it
can`t deny it
just can't let you go

i still need you
i still care about you

now look at me
instead of moving on.

i refuse to see
that i keep coming back
& i`m stuck in a moment
that wasn`t meant to last

wish i could find you
just like you found me
then i would never let you go

yesterday story (=

yesterday,
i met raa..

i just want to get my diary back..
so that`s why we met again
after.. a month ago..
yeaah still remember that..

now i think it`s not a good decision.

cuz i just can`t described what
i feel when he`s near me..

ever since we meet
i can`t stop thinking of him..

this make me realise
that the love is still there
but..

lalalala~
forget that..

anyway,
i have storry to tell
that involved about anaa~

after went home from school,
i`m off to the library in our village
with her.


* from left: me & anaa~

now she already finish her recruitment..
which is a YEAAAY for me..

anyway
congrats,babe!


we talk,
we laugh,
we share,
we enjoy
&
we remember.


Gladiolus Arcane Exotic Syzters,
never fall apart.

take note of it!

ezaa`,my best buddy (=

i feel so sleepyy.

but i don`t want to miss this part!

Make your own Glitter Graphics

i get this from
her md-ian friend`s blog.

perhaps,
she don`t mind (:

baah bye.

atuu jaa.

babe,
see you on this fridaaay (:

yes,him (:

i wake up when he want to call me.

he is..
how should i describe him
maybe..a sweet talker.
i agree

mahn,i kinda like him & even more.

but
i just not sure..
does he really meant that..
or whaat
i scare he just fool me..

anywaay,
my day is not really
full with happiness.

my tears fall.
its`s all because of my marks..

it`s not so good.
hopefully,i will pass..

pray,for me
okaay (:

i also..
text with raa..

pff~it`s hard for me to explain..
but truly,i can`t forget him..

lalalala~
wana sleep.

insomnia.

yesterday,
i can`t sleep since
my flu is bothering me..

so i wasting my time to japar`s room..
my brother since bilik nya sajuk..

we have a conversation about love..
yes,love!

he said

``when had we hurt someone.
one day u might also feel the same..
& start to feels regret about
what we had done before..``

i think he`s opinion is RIGHT.
cuz what`s goes around,turn around..

anyway,
i miss GAE`ss..

we seldom to contact each other..
i know everyone is busy with their own life..


i always said this too ezaa`


you are not just lost in my sight
but i also lost you from my side.

hey prove it just my wrong theory.
Gladiolus Arcane Exotic Sister FOREVER,right?

i know it`s sound rude..
but until when i`m gonna keep it..

ezaa`,
gomen-ne!

anyway,
here`s some photo screen take by me.
when we had a video call.












babe,
i miss to hanging out with you.
we always shared time toghether..

but not today,
i hope you have your own reason
for doing this..

yet i never regret become
your best buddy.

& you are more than a little
sister to me.

thanks,
for be the 1 before.

if not,
i might already die now (:

Happy Eid Mubarak (:

heyyyy..
in my previous post..

i forgot too mentioned..
abooout thiss..



for the readerss who know me..

for things i did wrong,
for words which might hurt,
for jokes you can`t take
& for advises you can`t accept

MILLIONSS OF APOLOGISE..

ex-specially for the person,
who.. who always hurt by me.

yaaaw..
today`s my oral for english..



which i got D for the last December..
& an E for the June..
i`m so upset with that..

& tadi..
the question is about camping..
which i never done before..
i never camping..

argggghhhh!
i hate too remember it..

& soon i`m going to have
my written exam
on 21st october..

wishh me..
wishhh mee all the BEST? (;

todaaay also 1 of my niece birthday,





staay cute dear.
babu didi will always you.